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sitting at home tonight, mom doesnt think its healthy for me to even go see a movie cause i had 2 sleepovers in a row. wow. shes so smart. note the sarcasm. got my prom dress . it rocks . i think. matches my eyes. so friday night, drank some nuts and berries courtesy of samson, made a lot of "drop offs" with him which freaked me out, and vince came over. i went to go have a cigarette on the porch (shut the fuck up= we all do dumb stuff) and vince is all like can i have one and im like umm sure, and so he comes out and starts talking to me about his problems, and says god jessica i hate seeing you. after my moment of shock i say thanks (my word of the week), and hes like no not like that, its just whenever i see u i cant stop thinking about you. and then he goes on about his problems and i go, well i dont want to interfere with u, and hes like no ur the least of my problems, and then i said well do u want a hug, and hes like could i have one, and i gave him a hug and sab walked out and ruined the moment!!!!! oh well. i just hope hes sincere, like i felt he was, but then again, i have been decieved. accomplished the beer bong last night. its so much better than just beer i realize. it rocked. oh well. brandon comes home tuesday he says he cant wait to see me. i need to forget my feelings for vince then, if thats the case. oh well boys are dumb why am i still talking about them. i pray for marty like every minute. that must be the scariest thing on the face of the earth. i feel for him. i just want to be there for him, like he is for me. hes a good boy, and i respect him even in times of doubt. god bless him,.