ok so family issues
so yea the whole reason behind these last few post is that my sisters and i have decided that my mom need mental help. my sister who has a degree in sociology and psychology said that shes putting out symptoms of histrionic and borderline personality disorders. and i love her for being my mom but i cant love her because she abandoned me when i was in 1st grade for her own personal accomplishments. and the thing that brought all these repressed feeling out is that shes trying to adopt her friends kid so he can become a citizen. now for me i feel that i was never given that chance to have that and now 10 years later she decides that she wants to be mom of the year especially after royally fucking me over in life. i love my dad bc he raised me but its not the way that my mom would have and that pisses her off. im not her way. i mean even if she is my mom why should she expect me to listen to her. she left me when i needed a mothers wing most. this is why my next tattoo is going to be the words "FALLEN ANGEL" as a reminder to never abandon my kids.
misery made me a fiend
misery made me a fiend