blood shot red
i get no sleep. i choose not to get any sleep. i think i actually work better with no sleep. today my workout at the gym was harder than it had been earlier this week. i didnt go to tutoring because i felt like shit. i slept an extra two hours than i normally would. i think i still feel like shit. my eyes are bloodshot and stupid. maybe its because it is the end of the week. i hope its just the need of the weekend to happen.
emmy sent me a card a couple of days ago. thank you for the cute earings. i miss her. carrie too. its weird not seeing them. hopefully i will get to see emmy in new york city for holloween. that will be my october goal.
i am still planning on dressing up for halloween. kathi from work has this fun idea that everyone should dress up like a character from the wizard of oz. i wanted to be the wicked witch of the west. i sure play a w(b)itch pretty well. i want to be a cheerleader this year. only if i lose more weight. (i dropped three pounds already. hardly noticeable but its an improvement.) am i too old to be dressing up for halloween? i dunno. maybe this will be my last year. although kathi is three years older than me and she still does. i guess if the parties are still flowing and i have a chance to look slutty without being called a slut for real, then maybe its worth it. i never have the guts to look slutty normally, so one day out the year when its acceptable makes it fun. i have big boobs for a reason.
my dad wants me to look at this 1984 bmw. so do i want it? probably not. i am making him happy by actually offering to look at it, but i wish he would keep his ideas to himself. i will buy a car when i damn ready to. more specifically when i have real money to spend. just because i have a real job doesnt mean the money adds up. yeah school loans and monthly bills (and my stupid shopping habit) does not help. i really want to buy a civic, but they are so pricey and even the used ones dont lose their value for like a hundred years. oy, buying cars is so difficult.
cant wait for the weekend so that i can go to a family reunion that isnt even mine and talk to people who are not related to me and that i dont even know. i need a new hobby for weekends only. im not a drinking girl. if i got drunk every weekend like some people i know who get drunk every night, i would be dead by now. not to mention that it takes like one shot to get me pass out drunk.
by the way. im so proud of dougie because he qualified for a poker tournament online. he beat out like forty people. and the buy in for the tourney is like 200 bucks. please dont turn into a heavy gambler and make me live in a trailer park somewhere in las vegas. pleeeeeze. you might be following the footsteps of that dude chris moneymaker, but just dont get too obsessed ;) just kidding.
emmy sent me a card a couple of days ago. thank you for the cute earings. i miss her. carrie too. its weird not seeing them. hopefully i will get to see emmy in new york city for holloween. that will be my october goal.
i am still planning on dressing up for halloween. kathi from work has this fun idea that everyone should dress up like a character from the wizard of oz. i wanted to be the wicked witch of the west. i sure play a w(b)itch pretty well. i want to be a cheerleader this year. only if i lose more weight. (i dropped three pounds already. hardly noticeable but its an improvement.) am i too old to be dressing up for halloween? i dunno. maybe this will be my last year. although kathi is three years older than me and she still does. i guess if the parties are still flowing and i have a chance to look slutty without being called a slut for real, then maybe its worth it. i never have the guts to look slutty normally, so one day out the year when its acceptable makes it fun. i have big boobs for a reason.
my dad wants me to look at this 1984 bmw. so do i want it? probably not. i am making him happy by actually offering to look at it, but i wish he would keep his ideas to himself. i will buy a car when i damn ready to. more specifically when i have real money to spend. just because i have a real job doesnt mean the money adds up. yeah school loans and monthly bills (and my stupid shopping habit) does not help. i really want to buy a civic, but they are so pricey and even the used ones dont lose their value for like a hundred years. oy, buying cars is so difficult.
cant wait for the weekend so that i can go to a family reunion that isnt even mine and talk to people who are not related to me and that i dont even know. i need a new hobby for weekends only. im not a drinking girl. if i got drunk every weekend like some people i know who get drunk every night, i would be dead by now. not to mention that it takes like one shot to get me pass out drunk.
by the way. im so proud of dougie because he qualified for a poker tournament online. he beat out like forty people. and the buy in for the tourney is like 200 bucks. please dont turn into a heavy gambler and make me live in a trailer park somewhere in las vegas. pleeeeeze. you might be following the footsteps of that dude chris moneymaker, but just dont get too obsessed ;) just kidding.