Apr 28, 2005 19:46
I put on smile to hide all the pain, on the outside I’m kool and relaxed but on the inside I’m going insane. See I’m one of the cats that’s always happy that always has a smile but if you put on my shoes you couldn’t walk a quarter of a mile. See I’ve been through the rain and the snow and even a little hail and I have so many stories but you know what I never tell. Because if I do im scared that my image change then to all the people that I know and look up to me I might seem strange. So you know what imma maintain my oh so happy life because I now its on me to deal with my strife. So I keep my pain concealed in this tiny jar called my heart its like me on the outside its strong an healthy but on the inside its torn apart. I know one day I breakdown and it’ll all be released but I hope the day it dose is the day I finally rest in peace. But for now imma give all that I can give, because I have to I know no other way to live. I take it step by step mile by mile day by day week by week. And I’ll keep taking it this way until my journey is complete. You see I have to be this way it’s the only way I know, I learned this when them people came and my mother told me to go. But you see for once this is not about her its about me, I’m trying to let you know this is a way I choose to be.
" something i wrote a while ago "
love b