2/10/08 7:30am
apart from acting on regular ideas in predetermined ratios with predictable outcomes... to do something/ make something for its absurdity--a thing which is absurd only because it is not recognized as otherwise for the most part-- to do this act, compelled because in its apparent non-sense there is yet a clarity, a task which begets understanding in a way no other acquired knowledge can unload, because the act is so personally satisfying, in such a profoundly unique way that if another person understood it also (and that is the hope at last), it would, given: be a statistic impossibility, but that another person might also perceive it, and immediately accept it and understand it, and thereby understanding you, if not only in nostalgic terms because they recognize it from a dream-- this, i remembered, is magic, this is what i truly love, and i must remember it.