Wow how long has it been?
I know this may seen funny way to restart my journal after such a long time away but anyone who knows me a little will understand if only because you can place yourself in one of my thoughts.
Tonight I started writing this on notepad (because formatted this past week and haven't loaded Office back on here) and decided I want to share this so that everyone can hold me accountable to change. ***(For that has been the lacking to my life story Accountability)***
When i Give someone something I always try and take some of it back therefore never fully giving anything to anyone.
Normally I take back more than I gave requiring a surplus of credit that is never resolved.
I am a thief.
I have stole everything attainable. Life on more than one occasion. Love, one would think this given freely till you talk to those I have loved (not just lovers, they got off easy). Money, I wrote my first hot check when I got my first bank account i think i was 18. Power, since I believe the electrcity bill I still owe on somewhere falls under money, I may have never stolen this. It has fallen into my lap on more than one occasion. God must have a sense of humor or more faith in me than imaginable.
Again my life has collapsed around me to show that it can get worse.
Again God has blessed me with a sunrise and a sunset.
He has not demanded that I change my ways. Only shown me that it will get worse if I do not. He has shown me his love for me is enduring. He will love me if I become who I should or if I fail again.
Thank You God
Tonight I started writing this on notepad (because formatted this past week and haven't loaded Office back on here) and decided I want to share this so that everyone can hold me accountable to change. ***(For that has been the lacking to my life story Accountability)***
When i Give someone something I always try and take some of it back therefore never fully giving anything to anyone.
Normally I take back more than I gave requiring a surplus of credit that is never resolved.
I am a thief.
I have stole everything attainable. Life on more than one occasion. Love, one would think this given freely till you talk to those I have loved (not just lovers, they got off easy). Money, I wrote my first hot check when I got my first bank account i think i was 18. Power, since I believe the electrcity bill I still owe on somewhere falls under money, I may have never stolen this. It has fallen into my lap on more than one occasion. God must have a sense of humor or more faith in me than imaginable.
Again my life has collapsed around me to show that it can get worse.
Again God has blessed me with a sunrise and a sunset.
He has not demanded that I change my ways. Only shown me that it will get worse if I do not. He has shown me his love for me is enduring. He will love me if I become who I should or if I fail again.
Thank You God