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shouldnt life be getting more chill at the end of the year? why did i feel so irrationally angry today?
this summer'll suck, though. during august, i might end up being completely alone. peter and taylor will have left to move into their dorms, and who the fuck knows if stevenll be able to do anything.
mother of god...
i dont want to be here anymore.
its funny- all i really want is to be alone. ironically, being alone is what im most afraid of.
i always wonder what people think about me. i always act so shallow when im around most people and i always feel bad about it afterwards. but then i turn around and keep doing it. i wish that i could honestly be open with people around me, but thats far easier said than done. itd be easier if i was an alcoholic.
i dont want to be me anymore, because i realize that this is how its going to be forever. this isnt ever going to get better, because no matter what happens, ill always be me. and that seems to be my biggest problem.
goodnight.
this summer'll suck, though. during august, i might end up being completely alone. peter and taylor will have left to move into their dorms, and who the fuck knows if stevenll be able to do anything.
mother of god...
i dont want to be here anymore.
its funny- all i really want is to be alone. ironically, being alone is what im most afraid of.
i always wonder what people think about me. i always act so shallow when im around most people and i always feel bad about it afterwards. but then i turn around and keep doing it. i wish that i could honestly be open with people around me, but thats far easier said than done. itd be easier if i was an alcoholic.
i dont want to be me anymore, because i realize that this is how its going to be forever. this isnt ever going to get better, because no matter what happens, ill always be me. and that seems to be my biggest problem.
goodnight.