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as bad as things have been making me feel lately, this weekend topped it off. the sad part is, im probably willingly going to do the same thing next weekend.
im never really mean to people. i dont really ever get mad enough to yell or say the meanest things i can think if. but last night i did, because, well, they deserved it.
the two girls we were driving around with kept looking at me with the same fucking look all night. like they felt sorry for me and were repulsed at the same time. they probably thought i wouldnt even notice it. but i can recognize that look in a fucking instant, but i guess that just comes from having seen people look at me with it all my fucking life.
i told one of them something that almost made her cry. i probably would have been more inclined to be nice or to even feel sorry for having said what i said if she hadnt acted like i was the fucking plague.
me and peter came back to my place to crash, and i just laid on the couch and stared at the wall again, thinking about everything. too bad everythings turned to shit.
and i guess i get to go stare some more.
im never really mean to people. i dont really ever get mad enough to yell or say the meanest things i can think if. but last night i did, because, well, they deserved it.
the two girls we were driving around with kept looking at me with the same fucking look all night. like they felt sorry for me and were repulsed at the same time. they probably thought i wouldnt even notice it. but i can recognize that look in a fucking instant, but i guess that just comes from having seen people look at me with it all my fucking life.
i told one of them something that almost made her cry. i probably would have been more inclined to be nice or to even feel sorry for having said what i said if she hadnt acted like i was the fucking plague.
me and peter came back to my place to crash, and i just laid on the couch and stared at the wall again, thinking about everything. too bad everythings turned to shit.
and i guess i get to go stare some more.