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Im a worrier, I have untiil now, just taken it as a fact of life. I realize now that it is a problem. It is a problem that I worry, it is starting to interfere with my every day life. I get anxiety and the worst possible senario is the only thing I can think of. I start to create a reality for myself, it turns awful, and again, the only outcome I can see is the worst possible one.
I dont know where it comes from, but I do know, that, this little fact of life, is the reason that I cling on to the things in my life that make me happier, that makes that little feeling, that little lightning storm in my brain go away. When that happens its nice.
I need to watch out though, not to cling to hard, to make sure I can see reality from the outside. I know that this can be a problem especially in my social life. I cling to people, and well, people dont stay around other people all that much. I need to find the Zen in my life, the balance in whatever it is im doing, then and only then will things slide together. An interesting concept.
Back to my point, I have been thinking lately that I need to figure out what the triggers of my negative thinking is, because it would help to see what makes me negative and then i can fight that with positive energy. Meditate or something.
Well im tired. Im out.
I dont know where it comes from, but I do know, that, this little fact of life, is the reason that I cling on to the things in my life that make me happier, that makes that little feeling, that little lightning storm in my brain go away. When that happens its nice.
I need to watch out though, not to cling to hard, to make sure I can see reality from the outside. I know that this can be a problem especially in my social life. I cling to people, and well, people dont stay around other people all that much. I need to find the Zen in my life, the balance in whatever it is im doing, then and only then will things slide together. An interesting concept.
Back to my point, I have been thinking lately that I need to figure out what the triggers of my negative thinking is, because it would help to see what makes me negative and then i can fight that with positive energy. Meditate or something.
Well im tired. Im out.