"lost boys..."
"There was a time when I was alone
Nowhere to go and no place to call home
My only friend was the man in the moon
And even sometimes he would go away, too
Then one night, as I closed my eyes,
I saw a shadow flying high
He came to me with the sweetest smile
Told me he wanted to talk for awhile
He said, "Peter Pan. That's what they call me.
I promise that you'll never be lonely."
And ever since that day...
I am a lost boy from Neverland
Usually hanging out with Peter Pan
And when we're bored we play in the woods
Always on the run from Captain Hook
"Run, run, lost boy, " they say to me,
"Away from all of reality."
Neverland is home to lost boys like me
And lost boys like me are free
He sprinkled me in pixie dust and told me to believe
Believe in him and believe in me
Together we will fly away in a cloud of green
To your beautiful destiny
As we soared above the town that never loved me
I realized I finally had a family
Soon enough we reached Neverland
Peacefully my feet hit the sand
And ever since that day...
I am a lost boy from Neverland
Usually hanging out with Peter Pan
And when we're bored we play in the woods
Always on the run from Captain Hook
"Run, run, lost boy, " they say to me,
"Away from all of reality."
Neverland is home to lost boys like me
And lost boys like me are free
Peter Pan, Tinker Bell, Wendy Darling,
Even Captain Hook.
You are my perfect story book
Neverland, I love you so,
You are now my home sweet home
Forever a lost boy at last
And for always I will say...
I am a lost boy from Neverland
Usually hanging out with Peter Pan
And when we're bored we play in the woods
Always on the run from Captain Hook
"Run, run, lost boy, " they say to me,
"Away from all of reality."
Neverland is home to lost boys like me
And lost boys like me are free."
-Ruth B "Lost Boy"
Strange how much can change over the course of time. Strange that you can look back at entries posted years ago... by a complete stranger.
Yet, part of you will always wish you could go back to the "old days"- when things were so much easier.
I feel like I never post on here until I need someone to talk to... then I find the most consolance in writing posts that only I will ever read.
The struggles of being an introvert.
I'm at a very defining point in my life again now. I want to say that I have a positive outlook for the things to come- a new job, a new life, a new start...
But realistically, I'm scared sh*tless.
Prepping for interviews, I could not avoid thinking- where do I see myself in five years.
Lame.
What kind of an answer are they actually looking for anyways? That I've climbed the corporate ladder and settled into a position that gives me everything I've ever dreamed of?
Hate to say it, but our world has gone to sh*t. Most people struggling to get by. Hate all over the news. The political debate led by a person/people that want to be in charge when the US finally hits rock bottom.
And here we all are. Complaining that things are so unfair and we want a quick-fix to solve these problems. There is no quick-fix. We're all lost boys.
We're not free. And until we realize that, nothing will change.
Side-note: reading back on my last post... Jared is growing into such a good young man. I don't think I will ever forget him asking me- "And then when? In four years?!"... I think I've done a good job of making it up to him now. Not that I was doing poorly then, but we're as close as we've ever been now. Moving home has helped that.
Jordan is back from Hawaii now too. An awkward situation there. Last time we actually talked was over a year ago- that ended in her calling me "a c*nt, an f-ing bitch."
That hurt.
I know I've never been good at giving forgiveness, but she's adult not too... Ten year age-gap makes it hard to know where to draw the line on words from an angry-teenager and honesty from a hurt sister...
I just don't understand what I ever did... or didn't do for that matter...
Welp, that's it for ramblings of a drunk 28 year old for tonight... maybe my next post won't be so far away.
Ps- don't date married dudes. They'll just break your heart and make you feel like a total idiot.
Less than three.
Nowhere to go and no place to call home
My only friend was the man in the moon
And even sometimes he would go away, too
Then one night, as I closed my eyes,
I saw a shadow flying high
He came to me with the sweetest smile
Told me he wanted to talk for awhile
He said, "Peter Pan. That's what they call me.
I promise that you'll never be lonely."
And ever since that day...
I am a lost boy from Neverland
Usually hanging out with Peter Pan
And when we're bored we play in the woods
Always on the run from Captain Hook
"Run, run, lost boy, " they say to me,
"Away from all of reality."
Neverland is home to lost boys like me
And lost boys like me are free
He sprinkled me in pixie dust and told me to believe
Believe in him and believe in me
Together we will fly away in a cloud of green
To your beautiful destiny
As we soared above the town that never loved me
I realized I finally had a family
Soon enough we reached Neverland
Peacefully my feet hit the sand
And ever since that day...
I am a lost boy from Neverland
Usually hanging out with Peter Pan
And when we're bored we play in the woods
Always on the run from Captain Hook
"Run, run, lost boy, " they say to me,
"Away from all of reality."
Neverland is home to lost boys like me
And lost boys like me are free
Peter Pan, Tinker Bell, Wendy Darling,
Even Captain Hook.
You are my perfect story book
Neverland, I love you so,
You are now my home sweet home
Forever a lost boy at last
And for always I will say...
I am a lost boy from Neverland
Usually hanging out with Peter Pan
And when we're bored we play in the woods
Always on the run from Captain Hook
"Run, run, lost boy, " they say to me,
"Away from all of reality."
Neverland is home to lost boys like me
And lost boys like me are free."
-Ruth B "Lost Boy"
Strange how much can change over the course of time. Strange that you can look back at entries posted years ago... by a complete stranger.
Yet, part of you will always wish you could go back to the "old days"- when things were so much easier.
I feel like I never post on here until I need someone to talk to... then I find the most consolance in writing posts that only I will ever read.
The struggles of being an introvert.
I'm at a very defining point in my life again now. I want to say that I have a positive outlook for the things to come- a new job, a new life, a new start...
But realistically, I'm scared sh*tless.
Prepping for interviews, I could not avoid thinking- where do I see myself in five years.
Lame.
What kind of an answer are they actually looking for anyways? That I've climbed the corporate ladder and settled into a position that gives me everything I've ever dreamed of?
Hate to say it, but our world has gone to sh*t. Most people struggling to get by. Hate all over the news. The political debate led by a person/people that want to be in charge when the US finally hits rock bottom.
And here we all are. Complaining that things are so unfair and we want a quick-fix to solve these problems. There is no quick-fix. We're all lost boys.
We're not free. And until we realize that, nothing will change.
Side-note: reading back on my last post... Jared is growing into such a good young man. I don't think I will ever forget him asking me- "And then when? In four years?!"... I think I've done a good job of making it up to him now. Not that I was doing poorly then, but we're as close as we've ever been now. Moving home has helped that.
Jordan is back from Hawaii now too. An awkward situation there. Last time we actually talked was over a year ago- that ended in her calling me "a c*nt, an f-ing bitch."
That hurt.
I know I've never been good at giving forgiveness, but she's adult not too... Ten year age-gap makes it hard to know where to draw the line on words from an angry-teenager and honesty from a hurt sister...
I just don't understand what I ever did... or didn't do for that matter...
Welp, that's it for ramblings of a drunk 28 year old for tonight... maybe my next post won't be so far away.
Ps- don't date married dudes. They'll just break your heart and make you feel like a total idiot.
Less than three.