...being pushed deeper and deerper under the waves
I cant do this anymore. I cant show up to school putting on a front EVERYDAY. This shit is starting to wear away at me and Im falling faster than I can pick myself up. Ive been wanting to turn the page but it seems like there is this huge weight that keeps on getting heavier everytime I try to move it. In all honesty this is ridiculous, what the fuck am I so caught up with and why cant I just let it go? Ive asked myself this question about a million times and have been trying to trick myself into believeing it, but Im not buying it anymore. I hate that this year has gotten off to such a sour start despite all of my attempts to make it anything but what it currently is. Dont go thinking there was something that any of you coulda done or can do cuz its a personal thing that I have to sort out with myself. So dont go pouring out your advice and best wishes to me, cuz thats not what I need right now. What I need is a pineapple upside down cake and some motherfuckin popcorn bitch. haha. well w/e just like everyone else I have to work out my own shit and bite my lip if there are any more bumbs in the road, even though my lip is already bleeding.