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when does the breaking point in self assigned boredom come? when you finally are so bored, you just go "FINE! FUCK IT! ILL GO DO SOMETHING!!!"
i feel like there is nothing to do. so i pick up my DS and play some game for a while, then go on the internet, and do nothing, then rewatch some movie ive seen a thousand times, when i could be drawing, or writing, or walking around... or making friends.
when im alone here, i have the capacity to just sit around all day, not doing a damn thing. i feel terrible about it, and when the next day comes, i dont even want to get up. i feel like im wasting my life. i dont even know what i want to do with my life. im questioning pretty much everything, and yet no resolution is in sight. im in this house all day, with no new input, and i feel afraid to leave, assuring myself there is nothing to see outside.
pretty lame, huh?
yeah, im pretty dissatisfied with myself.
i feel like there is nothing to do. so i pick up my DS and play some game for a while, then go on the internet, and do nothing, then rewatch some movie ive seen a thousand times, when i could be drawing, or writing, or walking around... or making friends.
when im alone here, i have the capacity to just sit around all day, not doing a damn thing. i feel terrible about it, and when the next day comes, i dont even want to get up. i feel like im wasting my life. i dont even know what i want to do with my life. im questioning pretty much everything, and yet no resolution is in sight. im in this house all day, with no new input, and i feel afraid to leave, assuring myself there is nothing to see outside.
pretty lame, huh?
yeah, im pretty dissatisfied with myself.