It is all ouot in the open

Sep 08, 2006 18:07

Well I feel glad it is off my chest but also feel like I am in high school again for doing something wrong. I have disappointed her but what can I do?

There is a underlying issue about this whole thing and cost is a major factor but there is so much more than just cost.

I told her that I was getting myself stressed and overwhlemed with everything and being part of the wedding party was one of those issues.

There is only 5 days before the wedding that I will be in Perth, and I will be getting pulled in different directions with the in-laws, Lynz (coming over from Scotland)and the wedding issues like dress fittings, shoe shopping and other wedding stuff. The expectations of the in-laws and Lynz during that time is an issue. I want to enjoy myself rather than stressing out about the wedding.

I told her I should have been honest with her when she came over in August but she was stressed about stuff with her fiance and her mum that I did not want to burden her.

I told her I know I am being selfish but want to be at the wedding in a positive way rather than be a burden to her and added stress on the both of us.

I have been getting myself so worked up about it and it is not worth it. I hope in time she will understand. I did offer to pay for the material as she has already bought that.

If I was going to be really honest I would say that I think she is making a mistake, ever since she has been with him they have had nothing but drama. I believe she is marrying him for the wrong reasons, she is 34 and scared to be alone. Craig and I do not like the guy and this is another reason why I do not want to be bridesmaid.

She is not my closest friend and to be honest, knows nothing about what is going on in my life. H, you know more than her about me.

I know I sound like a bitch but have to get it off my chest.

T, I love you so much but when the time comes that you get married, PLEASE do not ask me.

Pxxxx
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