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fuck. it's 5:45 am. i've slept for three hours today. and i'm starting to get tired again. but at least i finished my german reading.
life's been rough. i have a lot of work i should be doing. and i'm starting to doubt what i'm taking next term. in fact i have no idea. i might end up taking structures and scrunching it (taking it pass/fail) because i really need to take a math/science course and that one is the most appealing. i'm dying with all this reading and writing. and i like proofs.
emotionally, it's also been really trying. ive had a lot of ups and downs this past week or so, lots of crying (which i havent done in a while). things are slowly starting to get better. but there are set backs and what not. but i do what i can.
i'm about to start reading about bismarck, which hopefully will be good cuz he's essentially the reason i took this course. bismarck was one bad ass motherfucker. just straight up bad-assness.
boys. are boys. i've realized that i end up becoming really really good friends with all the guys that i like, thus blocking off all chances of it ever being something more. and i somehow manage to pick the guys who have other female interests. oh well. life goes on. at least i'm good friends with them?
yeah. so life's eh right now. olaf basketball games on saturday which should be awesome. then hopefully dinner with ashley's fam and friends. and then her birthday on monday. it'll be good to see her.
so now it's 5:51 am. i should probably sleep. i'm getting closer to the point where i'm starting to get annoyed with things. and i know once i hit that point, it'lll all go downhill from there.
much love to you all.
ps. i dont understand why people never leave comments. isn't that the purpose of an online journal??? hmm.
life's been rough. i have a lot of work i should be doing. and i'm starting to doubt what i'm taking next term. in fact i have no idea. i might end up taking structures and scrunching it (taking it pass/fail) because i really need to take a math/science course and that one is the most appealing. i'm dying with all this reading and writing. and i like proofs.
emotionally, it's also been really trying. ive had a lot of ups and downs this past week or so, lots of crying (which i havent done in a while). things are slowly starting to get better. but there are set backs and what not. but i do what i can.
i'm about to start reading about bismarck, which hopefully will be good cuz he's essentially the reason i took this course. bismarck was one bad ass motherfucker. just straight up bad-assness.
boys. are boys. i've realized that i end up becoming really really good friends with all the guys that i like, thus blocking off all chances of it ever being something more. and i somehow manage to pick the guys who have other female interests. oh well. life goes on. at least i'm good friends with them?
yeah. so life's eh right now. olaf basketball games on saturday which should be awesome. then hopefully dinner with ashley's fam and friends. and then her birthday on monday. it'll be good to see her.
so now it's 5:51 am. i should probably sleep. i'm getting closer to the point where i'm starting to get annoyed with things. and i know once i hit that point, it'lll all go downhill from there.
much love to you all.
ps. i dont understand why people never leave comments. isn't that the purpose of an online journal??? hmm.