Nightmares
I continue to have nightmares everynight and am losing sleep over it. They are really odd and I still wake up in a cold sweat.
My mom said it's my subconscious trying to tell me something. Well I don't know what it means when I have three kittens in the basement that I forget to feed for weeks at a time (recurring nightmare), and if my house is being broken into with threatening messages, or if my dad gets murdered, or my brother deathly ill, or my sister kidnapped. These are just some of the nightmares.
I had one this morning that New Orleans publication called me a "has-been" and a "huge disappointment to the singer-songwriter genre"... I bet I could take a stab at what that means... it's been over a year now since I've played a show, and almost the same amount of time has passed since I've tried to play my music. I've probably forgotten a lot of it by now. I think I fear starting up again, which is why I haven't still, even though I keep saying I will start playing music and writing songs again. Either way though, it made me toss and turn from 4:50 a.m. until 7:30 a.m.
I am getting tired of this. Literally. My energy is sapped and my brain is unrested. I wonder if this is why I've also been having headaches and migraines lately...
My mom said it's my subconscious trying to tell me something. Well I don't know what it means when I have three kittens in the basement that I forget to feed for weeks at a time (recurring nightmare), and if my house is being broken into with threatening messages, or if my dad gets murdered, or my brother deathly ill, or my sister kidnapped. These are just some of the nightmares.
I had one this morning that New Orleans publication called me a "has-been" and a "huge disappointment to the singer-songwriter genre"... I bet I could take a stab at what that means... it's been over a year now since I've played a show, and almost the same amount of time has passed since I've tried to play my music. I've probably forgotten a lot of it by now. I think I fear starting up again, which is why I haven't still, even though I keep saying I will start playing music and writing songs again. Either way though, it made me toss and turn from 4:50 a.m. until 7:30 a.m.
I am getting tired of this. Literally. My energy is sapped and my brain is unrested. I wonder if this is why I've also been having headaches and migraines lately...