May 17, 2012 00:21
I don't know if I can do this again.
(My reaction to) The last one nearly destroyed me.
There's genuine risk of jading.
I'm both eager to and (a little) scared to rebound.
Love is way worse when it's over.
And when you don't smother your feelings in self-destructive behavior.
The feelings still suck.
And worse yet when there's something salvagable, but it's probably not worth it and dangerous to bother.
I'm over running away and building walls.
There's still bridges to rebuild.
And what the hells with all these ads for "Is he cheating on you"?!
You know what will help me drown my sorrows?
Diablo 3. My suffering shall pale before the hoards of scaling loot.
But I'm just sinking in self-pity today.
The sun will shine again.
This I know.
love