Im back, and its really me not Sarah
Well here I am again. Im here to vent on whats going on right now, life sux, I've been in and out of the hospital and it sux. I got back from a really good hospital up in Gainsville yesterday. i didn't have any fun up there. I had to have a bronchoschopy, in other words they stick a fiberoptic camera up my nose and down into my lungs, they have to
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First of all this is me....so this will be a long comment you know that...now on to the important stuff.
First of all I know how sad and depressed you are. And you have good reason to be. Its like a big part of your life has been put on hold (band,swing,and such) but like I was telling you today, would you rather have a month or two where your kind of on hold? Or would you rather let it be the way it is and going doing your normal stuff and then all of a sudden have your lung collapse? I dont think so. You would have to have surgery to inflate your lung and you would be in the hospital for a longgg time. Puls recovery would be a killer and just getting back to your normal daily routine would be so difficult. Baby, I know this is so hard for you but it really is for the best that you take it easy for alittle so you can have the procedure and get back on your feet faster. Also, Dont you dare feel like you are letting people down for Gods sake!!! Its not your fault you have this disease! You were born with it. Its not like you had a choice. If people say or think your letting them down they have some serious screws lose in their head! Dont worry about troupe, or band or anything. You need to be worrying about you and your health and getting better. Thats what is most important. But I knowing you the way I know you. Its not going to matter what I or anyone says to you. You are you and you will worry and stress over it. Which is natural. But also, dont worry yourself to death. This could be so much worse. You know it could have been. Your life will go on, you will go to college and you will be able to dance again. Yes, you may miss out on your last marching season, but baby you will have other chances...I mean college...how awesome would that be? I know its your senior year and your supposed to have fun since its your best year...all I can say is...life is one huge ass roller coaster. And I will stick by your side the whole way down even when life takes some bas ass turns...I will still be there with you. Look what happened to me? My life took a huge nose dive and I had a pretty sucky senior year...but you will have fun!! Trust me its impossible not to! I know you can and will make it through this. I love you dearly and you know that. I am here for you whenever,I always will be. I dont care what it is..you need me call me.....Because you know your babys always here for you and always will be. I am so glad I got to see you today. And I am so happy I made you smile and laugh...you needed it.
Thats it...now I will go call you..lol
Love you Hunny Bunny
Your Poo-Head
I just realized..i did a huge you! lol Remember you tried to use wallpaper as an example? Now im using roller coasters...lol
I LOVE YOU!!!
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