hey....
hey....my eye is itchy.
adams cut at me
leronies cut at me for being cut at adam
my heart and my head are telling me two different things and its driving me absolouly crazy.
yes leronie was right, but if i remember rightly, shes had it happen to her too
how did she feel? how did she react.
i just wanted adam to know how i felt, the silence and the grunts wasnt reasuring, as i did that to my dad when i wasnt paying the slightest bit of attention and didnt care.
and i wanna learn to play the mandalin, because its different.
me smitty and the madalin, and of course the guitar
his was what cody is saying to me.... if you can be fuked either caring or reading it...
cody says:
so do ya still love him
alana says:
erm.. you dont just stop loving someone.... i will for fucking ages
cody says:
yer so maybe u can stop the pain and be with him agaib
alana says:
stop it
alana says:
you dont think i want to?
alana says:
but no
alana says:
im not going to
alana says:
becasue we have run out of things to talk about
alana says:
on he phone its like talking to a wall
cody says:
well for fuck sake ya not gonna coz he doesn't talk on the phone then see hiom more often
alana says:
you dont think i tried that.....
alana says:
everytime he'd make excuses, like oh i cant im watching my mail box for the next two weeks, then he went away with you and left the mailbox unguarded for a few days
alana says:
he just isnt the same adam anymore
cody says:
so try again dont be a quiter prove to him that whoever he hooked up with that u are better then her
cody says:
come on please i hate seein him like this u were the only thing that he did shit for and made him happy
alana says:
well then youll have to try harder.
alana says:
and i dont need to prove anything
cody says:
k but i didn't really see a quiter in ya alana i must admit
alana says:
well i think two years on and off, getting no where, he wouldnt tell me anything, and then every now and again, he would sit there and bite my head of for the stupidest reasons, he never texts me back, and he changes plans without me knowing, and even thoguht i treat him like my world, he throws it in my face by acting so much more different than he used to, he doesnt tell me he loves me anymore,
he hasnt for ages, and its awkward, because i actually had to think about whether to call him or not, because i would sit there thinking of questions and getting shitty short answers back
cody says:
well if u tell him this maybe he will wake up and relize that he is hurtin u
alana says:
like id say ' hi how are ya?' and get 'good'
alana says:
and then its ........
alana says:
me, 'what did you do taday?' .....'nothin'........
alana says:
oh k
cody says:
well i g2g so please resally think it over
alana says:
he answers me so shitty and i cant even get the slightest of grunts out of him
CoDy says:
like i sed tell him this
alana says:
no
i dont think adam wants to talk to me. he said he didnt want to hear it, so i guess he means it.
well im regretting saying sorry, eventhough i meant it, which im also regretting...
ahh well, smitty keeping me up there aand well...
adams cut at me
leronies cut at me for being cut at adam
my heart and my head are telling me two different things and its driving me absolouly crazy.
yes leronie was right, but if i remember rightly, shes had it happen to her too
how did she feel? how did she react.
i just wanted adam to know how i felt, the silence and the grunts wasnt reasuring, as i did that to my dad when i wasnt paying the slightest bit of attention and didnt care.
and i wanna learn to play the mandalin, because its different.
me smitty and the madalin, and of course the guitar
his was what cody is saying to me.... if you can be fuked either caring or reading it...
cody says:
so do ya still love him
alana says:
erm.. you dont just stop loving someone.... i will for fucking ages
cody says:
yer so maybe u can stop the pain and be with him agaib
alana says:
stop it
alana says:
you dont think i want to?
alana says:
but no
alana says:
im not going to
alana says:
becasue we have run out of things to talk about
alana says:
on he phone its like talking to a wall
cody says:
well for fuck sake ya not gonna coz he doesn't talk on the phone then see hiom more often
alana says:
you dont think i tried that.....
alana says:
everytime he'd make excuses, like oh i cant im watching my mail box for the next two weeks, then he went away with you and left the mailbox unguarded for a few days
alana says:
he just isnt the same adam anymore
cody says:
so try again dont be a quiter prove to him that whoever he hooked up with that u are better then her
cody says:
come on please i hate seein him like this u were the only thing that he did shit for and made him happy
alana says:
well then youll have to try harder.
alana says:
and i dont need to prove anything
cody says:
k but i didn't really see a quiter in ya alana i must admit
alana says:
well i think two years on and off, getting no where, he wouldnt tell me anything, and then every now and again, he would sit there and bite my head of for the stupidest reasons, he never texts me back, and he changes plans without me knowing, and even thoguht i treat him like my world, he throws it in my face by acting so much more different than he used to, he doesnt tell me he loves me anymore,
he hasnt for ages, and its awkward, because i actually had to think about whether to call him or not, because i would sit there thinking of questions and getting shitty short answers back
cody says:
well if u tell him this maybe he will wake up and relize that he is hurtin u
alana says:
like id say ' hi how are ya?' and get 'good'
alana says:
and then its ........
alana says:
me, 'what did you do taday?' .....'nothin'........
alana says:
oh k
cody says:
well i g2g so please resally think it over
alana says:
he answers me so shitty and i cant even get the slightest of grunts out of him
CoDy says:
like i sed tell him this
alana says:
no
i dont think adam wants to talk to me. he said he didnt want to hear it, so i guess he means it.
well im regretting saying sorry, eventhough i meant it, which im also regretting...
ahh well, smitty keeping me up there aand well...