It's almost here .....
Surprising...It took her 7 month's to find a "relationship" instead of like 1 month or something. Very odd, but there are of course "diffferent variables" all throughout life and comparing this is hard to do, there is alot that could have changed and that is now different.I sit back and wait now for my prediction to come true, well that's a wierd wording. I want to see if what I think will happen will occur and hmmm I'd not want to jinx the thought so I'll stay secretive for now. Usually secretive has no meaning here in this journal because sometimes I just dont give a fuck, I understand what I put here can be read by anyone or no one and I choose that grouping of people so therefore I am either comfortable with what I say here or uncomfortable and 99 percent of the time I write it here with no regret or thought before hand. This could possibly lead me to trouble someday, maybe...Maybe just piss someone off, but then again my freedom of speech and my words here dont have to be heard or seen, someone is choosing to do so and therefore I should not feel as though I have somethiong to hide from someone.
I know people whom do this though, they dont write names, they just kinda dabble around and beat around the bush per say. Just come out with it already, why poke it 17 times ? Just put it out there if you are going to talk about it at all, that's my thoughts.
It's amusing to me though haha, idk why it's just because I am a devious guy sometimes. I feel the need to show power and aggression to feel better when some people deserve the abuse because of the shit they have caused for other people.Im sorry, what's so amusing is that I see a "relationship" status change, I just monitor alot of things. Im compulsive with things for some reason idk... boyfriend/girlfriend status with certain people of course(not all obviously) away messages..I just have that little curiosity urge and then I look and go ahhh ok, let's make a personal wager with ourselves here and see just how things are going, what will happen.
I am rambling a journal along! I have deep thoughts I guess, but it's fun speaking them through my fingers. A little over a year ago I'd never have come to the conclusion that writing in a journal and letting others read it while reading other peoples daily lives would be fun, helpful in many ways, a stress reliever and actually benefit me at all, but I am glad to say that it's been a year or maybe a bit longer since I started writing and at first I started writing at DiaryLand and then Amanda got me into LiveJournal. I prefer the name more, Diary+guy= ehhh idk about that guy lol,and I just like the layout of things here, much better place to spend my time composing thought. I am glad I do this from time to time, almost day to day and while it was almost every single day of the week that I'd write, that time has come and gone. I am not expected to write anymore, but I still expect others to write, Brooke especially.
I like reading into others lives, it's interesting and I think everyone loves to read about someone's day, boring or exciting, it's new and there is just something about reading someone else's thoughts on thigns. I have been told that people like the way I write and explain things. I try to go in depth and explain bit by bit, it helps people put words into pictures and pictures are worth a thousand words right?
Enough random babble for now, there is much more in this head of mine to flow freely later on I assure you.
Today at work was ok, yesterday sucked assssss! It was hectic as fuck, Helen bitched me out pretty good, she was happy later after seing how many certificats I did and how fast I did most of them and then I took home like 59 certificats, did most all of them or well I did everyone that I could do, maybe 35-40 and the rest were ones with no condo name on them, unit address, unit owner or fax numbers etc, just shit I cant do anything with at home for the most part. I took home a few today, only like 3 though and because today was slow thank God himself! I dont know how, but I kept telling myself dont fuck up now and say "wow there arent any calls coming in, wtf is up with that?" because as soon as I say shit like that, *ring*..........*ring*....... yea the damn phone is blowing up for an hour. So today I kept my mouth shut and not that I believe in voodoo witch doctor shit like that, being jinxed if you will, but I swear it's like the biggest and wierdest coincidence that it happens when you say something lol.
I hope tomorrow is slow in terms of paperwork and calls, but busy enough to make the day roll by. I dont need certificats to finish after work because I need to rush home, and rush to see Brooke and then later on after Ashley gets home from work we are going to head to the formal and have fun, get drunk,whatever works. I also cant take Saturday off if the workload is heavy so therefore I asked Deirdra to help me tomorrow if she is not doing certificats and because I'll be the only one in there and she'd be out of the office so I would get screwed. She said she'd help me knock a few out from time to time if I get backed up a little and she was not doing certs.If she is, it's even easier to get the day's work in order and out the door. No more Myspace for you Deirdra! I got the damn girl addicted I swear lol.
Oh and speaking of my journal being almost a year old now or well actually being a year old, I am definately at a year or more on Myspace, no big deal, just so crazy how the time passes you by and you look back at everything you did in the last year. I cant believe Christmas is coming right the fuck back around and then let's see, right before it we have Thanksgiving.I idk I just remember alot of good things from this year and Christmas was awesome as always, my Nikon is almost a year old damn! I got seriously screwed up on New Years, hit the strip club, my 21st birthday party Dec 17th on a Friday night when we ended up at Tuscons and half the people who told me they'd show punked out, one guy I totally dropped from my life as a friend and aint talked to him since then because that was a total ass move on his part after telling me he was definately there, no call that night, none weeks later, nothing... I got wrecked that night, we still made it to Mons Venus and have a fuckin blast, got Preston his first lapdance and if you ever saw a little kid's eyes light up when lookin at all the presents under the Christmas tree, yeah that was Preston for titties and ass LOL hahahaa it was great.
Just a year ago I found out I love roller coasters at Universal Studios, well not a year just yet but Halloween Weekend will be a year so what, 3 weeks. I have not ridden a rollercoaster since then and I wanted to go to a theme park with Amanda, she hates flying, coasters, anything that does over 45 mph with no steering wheel for you so that held me off until now and well no one wanted to go anywhere recently I guess and money was a problem, always has been. Cant believe so much has happened. I was dating Meredith then, thaaaaank God she is gone and outa the picture.I hated her with the utmost passion when she played my head like she did, but I eventually got over it and I told her about a giant life change of mine and I believe she went through the same thing I did right around the same time, like 3-4 month's before actually so not that far off. She met some guy right around November and eventually fell in love and I met a girl and eventually fell in love. I messaged her idk, 4 month's back with a new head on my shoulders and just talked to her like I never said anything bad about her and she did the same, really wierd, but we talked.
In October of last year I started to fall in love and I am still in love too! Yes with photography of course hah, I miss those nice nights in Channelside on a parking garage with my Mustang just thinkin about new ways to capture a picture.It's hard to explain and well you never really get it back.It's like losing your first kiss. You always want it back, but it's never the same kiss ever again, the meaning is not the same. The first pictures I ever took out there were just awesome, the ones where my skill level was nothing of what it is now, but I still did well, had fun and I was dreaming of new ways to make good pictures.Now I am like ehh I know how to do that and right off the bat. It kinda sucks to lose that, but to lose it is to gain something else essentially, that gain over time is skill. I am definately going back though, sometime when it gets cooler, late at night like 12 or later just to go up on a parking garage and smell the crisp cold air, it's so different then and damn it's the best thing. You'd think by hearign me talk about it, that it was sex or something. It's so awesome and that's one thing I always want to remember, always..
I want to just park the car, sit on the hood while on a parking garage roof and just stare out at the neon city of Tampa.I want to hear the sounds of a cold winter night.It's crisp, things are different, less people are out most of the time, things are just so nice to me. All I know is that I love that part of life, if anything could be played over and over and over again for the rest of my days it's got to be the winter nights when it's not too too cold, yet still nips at your nose and I can clearly see the warm air I am breathing. I miss it so much and thank God it's coming right back again.So soon to leave Im afraid, bah..
Alright well enough of my cold air love lol. Im going to do my certificates,what little amount I have, put some stuff in the washer before I forget and then get a few things ready so I can haul ass tomorrow to see my baby. God I miss you, the weekends are so short and the weekdays drag along. Come here, go to USF! :) <3
Chris...
I know people whom do this though, they dont write names, they just kinda dabble around and beat around the bush per say. Just come out with it already, why poke it 17 times ? Just put it out there if you are going to talk about it at all, that's my thoughts.
It's amusing to me though haha, idk why it's just because I am a devious guy sometimes. I feel the need to show power and aggression to feel better when some people deserve the abuse because of the shit they have caused for other people.Im sorry, what's so amusing is that I see a "relationship" status change, I just monitor alot of things. Im compulsive with things for some reason idk... boyfriend/girlfriend status with certain people of course(not all obviously) away messages..I just have that little curiosity urge and then I look and go ahhh ok, let's make a personal wager with ourselves here and see just how things are going, what will happen.
I am rambling a journal along! I have deep thoughts I guess, but it's fun speaking them through my fingers. A little over a year ago I'd never have come to the conclusion that writing in a journal and letting others read it while reading other peoples daily lives would be fun, helpful in many ways, a stress reliever and actually benefit me at all, but I am glad to say that it's been a year or maybe a bit longer since I started writing and at first I started writing at DiaryLand and then Amanda got me into LiveJournal. I prefer the name more, Diary+guy= ehhh idk about that guy lol,and I just like the layout of things here, much better place to spend my time composing thought. I am glad I do this from time to time, almost day to day and while it was almost every single day of the week that I'd write, that time has come and gone. I am not expected to write anymore, but I still expect others to write, Brooke especially.
I like reading into others lives, it's interesting and I think everyone loves to read about someone's day, boring or exciting, it's new and there is just something about reading someone else's thoughts on thigns. I have been told that people like the way I write and explain things. I try to go in depth and explain bit by bit, it helps people put words into pictures and pictures are worth a thousand words right?
Enough random babble for now, there is much more in this head of mine to flow freely later on I assure you.
Today at work was ok, yesterday sucked assssss! It was hectic as fuck, Helen bitched me out pretty good, she was happy later after seing how many certificats I did and how fast I did most of them and then I took home like 59 certificats, did most all of them or well I did everyone that I could do, maybe 35-40 and the rest were ones with no condo name on them, unit address, unit owner or fax numbers etc, just shit I cant do anything with at home for the most part. I took home a few today, only like 3 though and because today was slow thank God himself! I dont know how, but I kept telling myself dont fuck up now and say "wow there arent any calls coming in, wtf is up with that?" because as soon as I say shit like that, *ring*..........*ring*....... yea the damn phone is blowing up for an hour. So today I kept my mouth shut and not that I believe in voodoo witch doctor shit like that, being jinxed if you will, but I swear it's like the biggest and wierdest coincidence that it happens when you say something lol.
I hope tomorrow is slow in terms of paperwork and calls, but busy enough to make the day roll by. I dont need certificats to finish after work because I need to rush home, and rush to see Brooke and then later on after Ashley gets home from work we are going to head to the formal and have fun, get drunk,whatever works. I also cant take Saturday off if the workload is heavy so therefore I asked Deirdra to help me tomorrow if she is not doing certificats and because I'll be the only one in there and she'd be out of the office so I would get screwed. She said she'd help me knock a few out from time to time if I get backed up a little and she was not doing certs.If she is, it's even easier to get the day's work in order and out the door. No more Myspace for you Deirdra! I got the damn girl addicted I swear lol.
Oh and speaking of my journal being almost a year old now or well actually being a year old, I am definately at a year or more on Myspace, no big deal, just so crazy how the time passes you by and you look back at everything you did in the last year. I cant believe Christmas is coming right the fuck back around and then let's see, right before it we have Thanksgiving.I idk I just remember alot of good things from this year and Christmas was awesome as always, my Nikon is almost a year old damn! I got seriously screwed up on New Years, hit the strip club, my 21st birthday party Dec 17th on a Friday night when we ended up at Tuscons and half the people who told me they'd show punked out, one guy I totally dropped from my life as a friend and aint talked to him since then because that was a total ass move on his part after telling me he was definately there, no call that night, none weeks later, nothing... I got wrecked that night, we still made it to Mons Venus and have a fuckin blast, got Preston his first lapdance and if you ever saw a little kid's eyes light up when lookin at all the presents under the Christmas tree, yeah that was Preston for titties and ass LOL hahahaa it was great.
Just a year ago I found out I love roller coasters at Universal Studios, well not a year just yet but Halloween Weekend will be a year so what, 3 weeks. I have not ridden a rollercoaster since then and I wanted to go to a theme park with Amanda, she hates flying, coasters, anything that does over 45 mph with no steering wheel for you so that held me off until now and well no one wanted to go anywhere recently I guess and money was a problem, always has been. Cant believe so much has happened. I was dating Meredith then, thaaaaank God she is gone and outa the picture.I hated her with the utmost passion when she played my head like she did, but I eventually got over it and I told her about a giant life change of mine and I believe she went through the same thing I did right around the same time, like 3-4 month's before actually so not that far off. She met some guy right around November and eventually fell in love and I met a girl and eventually fell in love. I messaged her idk, 4 month's back with a new head on my shoulders and just talked to her like I never said anything bad about her and she did the same, really wierd, but we talked.
In October of last year I started to fall in love and I am still in love too! Yes with photography of course hah, I miss those nice nights in Channelside on a parking garage with my Mustang just thinkin about new ways to capture a picture.It's hard to explain and well you never really get it back.It's like losing your first kiss. You always want it back, but it's never the same kiss ever again, the meaning is not the same. The first pictures I ever took out there were just awesome, the ones where my skill level was nothing of what it is now, but I still did well, had fun and I was dreaming of new ways to make good pictures.Now I am like ehh I know how to do that and right off the bat. It kinda sucks to lose that, but to lose it is to gain something else essentially, that gain over time is skill. I am definately going back though, sometime when it gets cooler, late at night like 12 or later just to go up on a parking garage and smell the crisp cold air, it's so different then and damn it's the best thing. You'd think by hearign me talk about it, that it was sex or something. It's so awesome and that's one thing I always want to remember, always..
I want to just park the car, sit on the hood while on a parking garage roof and just stare out at the neon city of Tampa.I want to hear the sounds of a cold winter night.It's crisp, things are different, less people are out most of the time, things are just so nice to me. All I know is that I love that part of life, if anything could be played over and over and over again for the rest of my days it's got to be the winter nights when it's not too too cold, yet still nips at your nose and I can clearly see the warm air I am breathing. I miss it so much and thank God it's coming right back again.So soon to leave Im afraid, bah..
Alright well enough of my cold air love lol. Im going to do my certificates,what little amount I have, put some stuff in the washer before I forget and then get a few things ready so I can haul ass tomorrow to see my baby. God I miss you, the weekends are so short and the weekdays drag along. Come here, go to USF! :) <3
Chris...