in hiding?
I read her journals, Amanda's that is and I see she she never post's a name. Why not? Why dont you just write the name it's obvious who it is and I "know for sure" not assume or guess, it's easy to see, seriously it's very obvious. I dont care, no one else does, why dont you just come out with that shit? Makes no sense and doesn't aggrivate me or anything, it's just fucking odd.
She says omg this smile, it's still on my face omgomgomg whatever so and so and that she has been spending time with "someone special" as if others and or I cant figure it out, will give a damn who it is or poke at it somehow. You write in a journal that is open for anyone to view yet hide things in secrecy, why do so? Why even write about it? Just oddddd.....
I am tired as fuck right now, got back from Winghouse a while ago and was hanging with Pat.Had a few beers and the not so usual chicken sandwhich I never have. I had fun, laughed a good amount and before that I was down at Vinoy park taking pictures. Tampa didn't work so well seing how the rain fucked me. I worked my way into Tampa and before I got half way across the bridge I could tell it was going to suck.It was so dark there I just decided to turn around as soon as I got to the other side. I did so at Westshore and came back to St.Pete where I then headed to the Vinoy hotel and Vinoy park on the water. I think I got some decent pictures out there,yet to look at them of course. This weekend was good for the most part and I had alot of fun Saturday night thank God.
Friday I wanted nothing to do, but spend my time with you Brooke, nothing but my time with you. I had plans to go and figure out my plans for the night. I wanted to do something like a movie/dinner and maybe a walk down by the water by the pier because I know how much you love the water and I know I like it too. Those plans never even came close to occuring that night, oh well, it didn't happen so there is always next time.
We ended up being lazy around the house Friday after you helped out your mom with the boat down at Clearwater Marina and I dont even recall exactly what else happened except that it didn't work exactly to plan and we just went to Andy's because Audrey was stressed( as usual and always) so we headed over there so you could talk with her and I was really tired from sleeping little and working till 5 pm that day then not sleeping after work at all. I was ready to sleep and then because the night was not like I wanted it at all, I was upset too, things could have been alot better, but I got over it.
Saturday morning was supposed to be the ZTA cancer walk thing or whatever it was, but being that I know all about how organized sororities are, they proved to be dead on track with screwing up once more in all of the retarded bludners I have seen thus far from more than one sorority. Well Brooke never got a call and she was supposed to be told where to go.I mean they tell her it's in St.Pete, they say nothing more and or had no answers, sent no email, didn't call her and expected her to show up how? Yeah, retarded...
So she worried about showing and what would happen if she was a no show, but I told her not to fret because if they dont inform her, what can she do besides say wtf, you didn't call me or tell me anything and then you want me to do what? become a psychic and guess the location ?
So she overslept her alarm(never heard it) and then drove down there anyway. I knew it was at Vinoy Park somewhere in that area and heard so from April. So I told Brooke it was in the surrounding area, just not sure where at there exactly.She drove there late and people were leaving around 9 or so. So it's stupid she had to be up at like 5 to be there around 6:30 am or whatever and then it only goes till like 9 am. Pretty piss poor planning on their part as far as getting her there and then it's only like 2-3 hours long? whatever...
Saturday... I awoke Saturday around 11:00 to my alarm in which I snoooozed like 3 times lol.I finally got up around 11:30 and I talked to Brooke about what happened and that she missed it.I got up at a decent hour to head to the mall and to make srue I got up at a decent hour.If not, it'd be like 3-4 before then and my plans for the day would have been just like normal, shot to shit! It was good to wake up semi early, it's been about 6 month's since I woke up semi early and did something. I recall waking up at 8-9 am month's back on my weekends just to go and do stuff and get out of the house. I miss being tired at 9 pm because I had already been up since 9 am and was busy all day.I have not had that in a long while, it's good from time to time. So after getting up, getting a shower and trying to leave the house, I just lingered around and talked to mom a while, watched some tv and finally got to the mall at like 2 pm lol. Procrastination is the name of the game!
I bought two new shirts for toooo much money, but it's needed for work and I like em, whatever.I spent 146 bucks on the two shirts together so yea, call me crazy lol. One is CK and the other is of course my normal, International Concepts(I.N.C) Chris met me at the mall with his brother, we ate food, looked around and I browsed some jewelry stores before they got there actually.
I was lookin for diamond earings for Brooke as she wants some for Christmas from mom and dad. I know a bit about diamonds, pricing, quality and basically a few of the thigns needed to know to not get ripped off or feel cheated when buying diamonds.So I was lookin at prices to let her know what was what even though I knew that a pair of diamond earings at 1/4 of a carat was going to be like 500 dollars easily and they were that for the most part. Depends o the clarity, if they are near colorless and what size they are of course along with whether it's a 10 carat or 14 carat gold setting.
The sales people were fucking car salesman in their years before the diamond industry and I could tell by how fucking vulture like they were. They picked me apart one after another. Dont people understand the worse Browse? I swear the next time I am looking around I am going to say I am just browsin one time.If they ask me again I am going to ask them if they have a dictionary available so I can see what the word "browse" means and then say yeah cause I swore it had something to do with like leaving me alone to shop while I LOOK for whatever I feel I want to look for, maybe I am wrong and then just walk out of the store.
I explained the occasion, they kept asking me one by one how long I had been with my girlfriend, again I explained it was for a different occasion and then the lady tried to get me to sign up for their credit card.WTF go the fuck away bitch! Aahhhhh I told her not to cut you off, but I am not signing anything today. I am just looking, dont have any idea what she wants, it's just an idea, I am pricing and that's it. I think they got the idea eventually and shit they made me feel akward. One lady didn't know how to talk to me after I said I was fine and just browsing because she asked me no shiiiiit , like 3 times within 5 minuntes what exactly I needed help with after telling everyone who attempted to help me(3 people) that I was browsing. Fucking sales people, christ!
So I just got a couple catalogs and left there. I want a new watch now lol, I wnt a fuckin Tag Heur now damnit! If only I had at the least 800 dollars hahaha, oh well I wont anytime soon and if I did, I'd kill all of my debt. Dinner that night turned out a bit wierd and I figured it was going to be akward, but it was ok. I was mad the night before I had no time with Brooke and then she told me she was sorry she had no time to do what I wanted and she didn't intend on being so busy. I understood that, but when her ex Ryan asked her to go to dinner with him on Saturday and I found out about it, I was of course mad.. Why is he trying to get her to go to dinner first off? He aint helping himself out with the whole ordeal and getting over her etc. He aint helping me be his friend if he keeps making what appears to be small advances at her even though I am sure they arent meant that way at all. I just wanted to spend time with her and eat a nice dinner, but she had already made plans with him. She invited me and Chris along and her sister. It turned out to be Chris and I along with Brooke and Ryan too. They wanted to go to Shepards on Clearwater beach and the real kicker that made me mad was that I made my plans for Friday night which got messed up about a week in advance, yet I somehow doubt Ryan had his plans made anywhere near that early and she agree'd to dinner with him.
I was mad at the time, wondered why she'd be doing that and I guess it's hard for me to understand really. I dont look at it like she does of course and I guess she just wants to be his friend much like I did before she realized how much of a serious bitch she was and she couldn't deal with a nice genuine guy like me anymore, after all we fought too much, but I never did her wrong once.Eh whatever... Brooke just wants to be cool with him and stay friends, understandable, but I have every right to feel jealous.....I do adore her....
We ate dinner, had a decent time and then took off later for Brooke's house so Paige and Brooke could get dressed and ready to head to Round Up .Chris, Ryan and I were hanging out downstairs watching tv just bsing and I was having an ok time.I had a new John Deere shirt on(IknowIamsoooocooool LOL), I like it and bought it that day actually. A few of us later went to Deirdra's for some drinking, I drove to Round Up after Paige got shitfaced from the bottle of Moet Kenny bought her for whatever reason and damn it smelled and tasted horrible, fuck that nasty garbage!
We got to Round Up around 11, not a long line either and from there the night was good. I had a great time, got to do my Neon Moon with my baby and Danielle turned 21 at the stroke of midnight and I didn't really see her much after that, she probly got shitfaced lol.
I was hardly where I wanted to be on the drinking scale and that's after like 5 beers and 3 Chocolate CakeS(shots) and one was mixed all fucking wrong so it was sick as hell. I finally got pretty drunk after slamming like 3 Sex On The Beach's and I screwed myself doing it too. I shouldn't have done it so quick cause I missed the last 3 slow songs as I really had to go to the bathroom and then my stomach started to knot up due to the drinks I just slammed, they were too sugary or whatever and I have done it more than once, yet I dont learn ....
I was mad I missed the dances, but there is going to be a next time, whatever.
Deirdra got slammed, she was hurting and wanted to throw up, hopefully she did ok at home and well she talked to me today while I was at Winghouse and she told me she had a hangover all day long. I stayed with Brooke last night as I had almsot no time with her this weekend and the night was good. I woke up next to her on the couch and then went to sleep for like 2-3 more hours in her bed before she woke me up again. She left around 1 to head back home for school which will start Tuesday cause her classes dont start till then and end on Friday so she has a decent weekend all the time.
I miss her alot already and already have plans for this upcoming weekend. Looks like I am going to her school's formal at some nice hotel on Friday. She asked me what I was doing on Friday and I was surprised to hear her ask me like she wanted to do something, it made me happy to hear so I said welllll what are you doing Friday and she told me she wanted to do the formal thing so I said well I am doing that and I know she is happy about that. I gotta find something to wear, hmmm I know I am overthinking about it adn worrying because if anything I will show up looking pretty damn good thinking it's going to be really formal and it probably wont be so I think I will be good. Ger roomie Ashley wants to bring her boyfriend/fiance, but apparently he doesn't want to go at all and Brooke used me as the scapegoat if you will lol, and said well Chris will go with me so tell Robert to go with you it will be fun. She asked Brooke if she has asked me yet and she replied no, but he will do it because he is really open to things. Well she was right lol, lucky her!
ok well work calls tomorrow morning and I am tired, time to sleep now.
<3 miss you Brooke
|Ch|rist|opher| Robbi|ns|
She says omg this smile, it's still on my face omgomgomg whatever so and so and that she has been spending time with "someone special" as if others and or I cant figure it out, will give a damn who it is or poke at it somehow. You write in a journal that is open for anyone to view yet hide things in secrecy, why do so? Why even write about it? Just oddddd.....
I am tired as fuck right now, got back from Winghouse a while ago and was hanging with Pat.Had a few beers and the not so usual chicken sandwhich I never have. I had fun, laughed a good amount and before that I was down at Vinoy park taking pictures. Tampa didn't work so well seing how the rain fucked me. I worked my way into Tampa and before I got half way across the bridge I could tell it was going to suck.It was so dark there I just decided to turn around as soon as I got to the other side. I did so at Westshore and came back to St.Pete where I then headed to the Vinoy hotel and Vinoy park on the water. I think I got some decent pictures out there,yet to look at them of course. This weekend was good for the most part and I had alot of fun Saturday night thank God.
Friday I wanted nothing to do, but spend my time with you Brooke, nothing but my time with you. I had plans to go and figure out my plans for the night. I wanted to do something like a movie/dinner and maybe a walk down by the water by the pier because I know how much you love the water and I know I like it too. Those plans never even came close to occuring that night, oh well, it didn't happen so there is always next time.
We ended up being lazy around the house Friday after you helped out your mom with the boat down at Clearwater Marina and I dont even recall exactly what else happened except that it didn't work exactly to plan and we just went to Andy's because Audrey was stressed( as usual and always) so we headed over there so you could talk with her and I was really tired from sleeping little and working till 5 pm that day then not sleeping after work at all. I was ready to sleep and then because the night was not like I wanted it at all, I was upset too, things could have been alot better, but I got over it.
Saturday morning was supposed to be the ZTA cancer walk thing or whatever it was, but being that I know all about how organized sororities are, they proved to be dead on track with screwing up once more in all of the retarded bludners I have seen thus far from more than one sorority. Well Brooke never got a call and she was supposed to be told where to go.I mean they tell her it's in St.Pete, they say nothing more and or had no answers, sent no email, didn't call her and expected her to show up how? Yeah, retarded...
So she worried about showing and what would happen if she was a no show, but I told her not to fret because if they dont inform her, what can she do besides say wtf, you didn't call me or tell me anything and then you want me to do what? become a psychic and guess the location ?
So she overslept her alarm(never heard it) and then drove down there anyway. I knew it was at Vinoy Park somewhere in that area and heard so from April. So I told Brooke it was in the surrounding area, just not sure where at there exactly.She drove there late and people were leaving around 9 or so. So it's stupid she had to be up at like 5 to be there around 6:30 am or whatever and then it only goes till like 9 am. Pretty piss poor planning on their part as far as getting her there and then it's only like 2-3 hours long? whatever...
Saturday... I awoke Saturday around 11:00 to my alarm in which I snoooozed like 3 times lol.I finally got up around 11:30 and I talked to Brooke about what happened and that she missed it.I got up at a decent hour to head to the mall and to make srue I got up at a decent hour.If not, it'd be like 3-4 before then and my plans for the day would have been just like normal, shot to shit! It was good to wake up semi early, it's been about 6 month's since I woke up semi early and did something. I recall waking up at 8-9 am month's back on my weekends just to go and do stuff and get out of the house. I miss being tired at 9 pm because I had already been up since 9 am and was busy all day.I have not had that in a long while, it's good from time to time. So after getting up, getting a shower and trying to leave the house, I just lingered around and talked to mom a while, watched some tv and finally got to the mall at like 2 pm lol. Procrastination is the name of the game!
I bought two new shirts for toooo much money, but it's needed for work and I like em, whatever.I spent 146 bucks on the two shirts together so yea, call me crazy lol. One is CK and the other is of course my normal, International Concepts(I.N.C) Chris met me at the mall with his brother, we ate food, looked around and I browsed some jewelry stores before they got there actually.
I was lookin for diamond earings for Brooke as she wants some for Christmas from mom and dad. I know a bit about diamonds, pricing, quality and basically a few of the thigns needed to know to not get ripped off or feel cheated when buying diamonds.So I was lookin at prices to let her know what was what even though I knew that a pair of diamond earings at 1/4 of a carat was going to be like 500 dollars easily and they were that for the most part. Depends o the clarity, if they are near colorless and what size they are of course along with whether it's a 10 carat or 14 carat gold setting.
The sales people were fucking car salesman in their years before the diamond industry and I could tell by how fucking vulture like they were. They picked me apart one after another. Dont people understand the worse Browse? I swear the next time I am looking around I am going to say I am just browsin one time.If they ask me again I am going to ask them if they have a dictionary available so I can see what the word "browse" means and then say yeah cause I swore it had something to do with like leaving me alone to shop while I LOOK for whatever I feel I want to look for, maybe I am wrong and then just walk out of the store.
I explained the occasion, they kept asking me one by one how long I had been with my girlfriend, again I explained it was for a different occasion and then the lady tried to get me to sign up for their credit card.WTF go the fuck away bitch! Aahhhhh I told her not to cut you off, but I am not signing anything today. I am just looking, dont have any idea what she wants, it's just an idea, I am pricing and that's it. I think they got the idea eventually and shit they made me feel akward. One lady didn't know how to talk to me after I said I was fine and just browsing because she asked me no shiiiiit , like 3 times within 5 minuntes what exactly I needed help with after telling everyone who attempted to help me(3 people) that I was browsing. Fucking sales people, christ!
So I just got a couple catalogs and left there. I want a new watch now lol, I wnt a fuckin Tag Heur now damnit! If only I had at the least 800 dollars hahaha, oh well I wont anytime soon and if I did, I'd kill all of my debt. Dinner that night turned out a bit wierd and I figured it was going to be akward, but it was ok. I was mad the night before I had no time with Brooke and then she told me she was sorry she had no time to do what I wanted and she didn't intend on being so busy. I understood that, but when her ex Ryan asked her to go to dinner with him on Saturday and I found out about it, I was of course mad.. Why is he trying to get her to go to dinner first off? He aint helping himself out with the whole ordeal and getting over her etc. He aint helping me be his friend if he keeps making what appears to be small advances at her even though I am sure they arent meant that way at all. I just wanted to spend time with her and eat a nice dinner, but she had already made plans with him. She invited me and Chris along and her sister. It turned out to be Chris and I along with Brooke and Ryan too. They wanted to go to Shepards on Clearwater beach and the real kicker that made me mad was that I made my plans for Friday night which got messed up about a week in advance, yet I somehow doubt Ryan had his plans made anywhere near that early and she agree'd to dinner with him.
I was mad at the time, wondered why she'd be doing that and I guess it's hard for me to understand really. I dont look at it like she does of course and I guess she just wants to be his friend much like I did before she realized how much of a serious bitch she was and she couldn't deal with a nice genuine guy like me anymore, after all we fought too much, but I never did her wrong once.Eh whatever... Brooke just wants to be cool with him and stay friends, understandable, but I have every right to feel jealous.....I do adore her....
We ate dinner, had a decent time and then took off later for Brooke's house so Paige and Brooke could get dressed and ready to head to Round Up .Chris, Ryan and I were hanging out downstairs watching tv just bsing and I was having an ok time.I had a new John Deere shirt on(IknowIamsoooocooool LOL), I like it and bought it that day actually. A few of us later went to Deirdra's for some drinking, I drove to Round Up after Paige got shitfaced from the bottle of Moet Kenny bought her for whatever reason and damn it smelled and tasted horrible, fuck that nasty garbage!
We got to Round Up around 11, not a long line either and from there the night was good. I had a great time, got to do my Neon Moon with my baby and Danielle turned 21 at the stroke of midnight and I didn't really see her much after that, she probly got shitfaced lol.
I was hardly where I wanted to be on the drinking scale and that's after like 5 beers and 3 Chocolate CakeS(shots) and one was mixed all fucking wrong so it was sick as hell. I finally got pretty drunk after slamming like 3 Sex On The Beach's and I screwed myself doing it too. I shouldn't have done it so quick cause I missed the last 3 slow songs as I really had to go to the bathroom and then my stomach started to knot up due to the drinks I just slammed, they were too sugary or whatever and I have done it more than once, yet I dont learn ....
I was mad I missed the dances, but there is going to be a next time, whatever.
Deirdra got slammed, she was hurting and wanted to throw up, hopefully she did ok at home and well she talked to me today while I was at Winghouse and she told me she had a hangover all day long. I stayed with Brooke last night as I had almsot no time with her this weekend and the night was good. I woke up next to her on the couch and then went to sleep for like 2-3 more hours in her bed before she woke me up again. She left around 1 to head back home for school which will start Tuesday cause her classes dont start till then and end on Friday so she has a decent weekend all the time.
I miss her alot already and already have plans for this upcoming weekend. Looks like I am going to her school's formal at some nice hotel on Friday. She asked me what I was doing on Friday and I was surprised to hear her ask me like she wanted to do something, it made me happy to hear so I said welllll what are you doing Friday and she told me she wanted to do the formal thing so I said well I am doing that and I know she is happy about that. I gotta find something to wear, hmmm I know I am overthinking about it adn worrying because if anything I will show up looking pretty damn good thinking it's going to be really formal and it probably wont be so I think I will be good. Ger roomie Ashley wants to bring her boyfriend/fiance, but apparently he doesn't want to go at all and Brooke used me as the scapegoat if you will lol, and said well Chris will go with me so tell Robert to go with you it will be fun. She asked Brooke if she has asked me yet and she replied no, but he will do it because he is really open to things. Well she was right lol, lucky her!
ok well work calls tomorrow morning and I am tired, time to sleep now.
<3 miss you Brooke
|Ch|rist|opher| Robbi|ns|