Eat Your Words....
SO AT THE END OF THE DAY IT'S A GOOD DAY BECAUSE YOU ARENT WITH ME RIGHT?
WITH EVERY MOMENT WE SHARE, EVERY SMILE, EVERY TOUCH, I BECOME MORE CERTAIN THAT IN YOU, I'VE FOUND SOMETHING I'VE LOOKED FOR, FOR A LONG TIME.
I DONT KNOW WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS, BUT I DO KNOW HOW MUCH YOUR TOUCH EXCITES ME, AND HOW WONDERFUL I FEEL WHEN I AM WITH YOU.
BEING WITH YOU DOES WHAT? AND YOU WHAT ME? LOVE ME? WAIT A MINUTE....LOVE? THANK YOU FOR BEING MY "EVERYTHING"? HOLY SHIT THAT'S ALOT, THAT'S LIKE UNEXPLAINABLE IT'S SO MUCH. YOU LOVE ME?
I MADE YOU SOOOO HAPPY, YOU CAN STILL READ ENGLISH RIGHT? I THINK THAT'S WHAT IT SAYS, I MAY BE WRONG.
YOU ARE WHAT? SO LUCKY TO HAVE "ME" CHRIS RYAN PEARL IN YOUR LIFE? WAIT A MINUTE, ARE YOU AS CONFUSED AS ME OR ?
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REMEMBER THIS PICTURE? NO??? EH WELL IF YOU SAID NO, HERE IS A REFRESHER FOR YOU.
You came home and cried more than just a few times when you looked at that picture. Deny it all you want, it's ok. I know the truth, I know what made me sad and it made me sad to know you cried over me, because you missed me that much, because you thought about me during class one time, the whole time... It hurt to know someone cared that much about me and was hurting inside because of it, it "did" anyway....
Want to deny it?
Had enough? You became a cold hearted bitch and left me to fend for myself when I was still so in love with you.It took me a long time to get over it and I cried alot.My parents saw the best thing in my life fall apart at a rapid pace and they couldn't put me together, they had no way to help me.I had to help myself. You wouldn't talk to me for so long and when you did you were rude, a bitch to be honest and you acted cold and made me feel like I was a nobody after showing you one of the most heart felt and wonderful feelings a person can ever develop for someone else. I cared for you so much and you just gave up when things got hard and then you wanted nothing to do with me anymore. I was not good enough over the course of 24 hours after you broke my heart. You made me feel like the bad guy and my head was spinning while just trying to grasp what was up from down, left from right and who was wrong and who was right. I blamed myself for alot and missed work because of it, could have developed an ulcer with the pain I underwent and it just tore me apart with ease.
You didn't want to ever try to be my friend again after I had moved on and made new friends, found new things to do, got a new job and became more of a man than before. You deserve every little bit of shut the fuck up that I give you and if you truly want the worst of the worst, I'll dig through DeadAim logs that are between 6-12 month's old and make you put your foot back in your mouth while trying to act as if I was some terrible guy who mis treated you. You are a changed person, a cold bitch and you deserve every ounce of shit I give you, every bit of hate I can muster and if I can ever embarass you, well you better believe I will and well I already have the power to do that very strongly with a few simple keystrokes.
The power I have is amazing Amanda, you could have just been a good person, a good friend and accepted me, a changed guy.... as your friend, but you are too good now. LOL go back after those fro haired fuckin dudes with 10 myspace pictures all at the same angle like he is hiding something and at the same time showing off his little pouty lips, that guy could be a fucking gay model seriously LOL. Go chase those lacrosse ego mongers and some frat brothers... You arent the Amanda I met last year that's for sure.