You're loss, yet again.....
This would be Amanda's journal entry for tonight..
01:52 am
She sits alone in her room
Emotions provoked, head spinning
Trying to figure it all out
She sees her friends
And her mind is happy
But she always comes back to her room
Alone
Feeling as if she were punished
Damned for eternity
Soul losing all its happiness
Her thoughts are free
Her expression is sincere
but her heart is cold
Only warmth can revive her
Current Mood: contemplative
That's exactly what she feels from how I understand her, how I once knew her. She cant find anyone to keep her company who doesn't just wanna have sex, too bad aint it? Fuckin cruel world. She see's her friends at Chapter and a few from school, some roomates come and go, some work and some go home to visit family for a few hours etc and or whatever and she sits alone when not tying up her time with school, the sorority and or what few friends she has outside of the sorority at this time. I offered my friendship again, my everything as a person and she turned her cold shoulder on me once again. This is you're loss Amanda, not mine. I am happy to see how you are doing right now, this predicament you are in.
Fuckin shady ass cruel world aint it? Could have just opened up your mind for a while and maybe you'd have a great friendship back with myself, but you fucked up and you cant get it back now. It almost sucks to say that I in a way, am happy and so fucking glad you are feeling lonely and I just left my better half 45 minutes ago.She sleeps peacefully until the morning comes and you, you get contemplative thoughts on why you cant find a guy who is worthwhile, why you cant be happy ALONE and many more thoughts. Too bad, soo sad....for you of course...
I cant believe I can be glad about it, but I have been walked upon too much and given my all, my heart and my soul to everyone even you and with you I gave more then ALL, I gave love and you lied to me and then after I got my heart broken and stepped on, I came back to befriend you because I am a great friend, a better person, a better man than that. I hope the nights are long and cold for you and maybe it's cruel to wish that, but some deserve to get burned and I believe I am right when I say that this time, you deserve it. Winter is coming, enjoy those cold nights alone, all by yourself, cold biting at your ears, your nose.....
It's just around the corner...
contemplate that
Im happy, I am tired and it feels good to be cold to those who never gave a damn to those of who were better friends to them then they have ever known. For now I retire this, im sleepin cause work calls.
It's just around the corner, here comes the colors, the leaves change, the cool night air, the light breeze and then soon enough it's winter again, again so soon.... You will miss some of the best times you ever had...I'll make some of the best times I have ever had, again and this time with a new person who is just like me in one of the ways you arent and probably never could be, she is just as forgiving if not more forgiving than I. You're gonna wish you were too.
peace out for now.
01:52 am
She sits alone in her room
Emotions provoked, head spinning
Trying to figure it all out
She sees her friends
And her mind is happy
But she always comes back to her room
Alone
Feeling as if she were punished
Damned for eternity
Soul losing all its happiness
Her thoughts are free
Her expression is sincere
but her heart is cold
Only warmth can revive her
Current Mood: contemplative
That's exactly what she feels from how I understand her, how I once knew her. She cant find anyone to keep her company who doesn't just wanna have sex, too bad aint it? Fuckin cruel world. She see's her friends at Chapter and a few from school, some roomates come and go, some work and some go home to visit family for a few hours etc and or whatever and she sits alone when not tying up her time with school, the sorority and or what few friends she has outside of the sorority at this time. I offered my friendship again, my everything as a person and she turned her cold shoulder on me once again. This is you're loss Amanda, not mine. I am happy to see how you are doing right now, this predicament you are in.
Fuckin shady ass cruel world aint it? Could have just opened up your mind for a while and maybe you'd have a great friendship back with myself, but you fucked up and you cant get it back now. It almost sucks to say that I in a way, am happy and so fucking glad you are feeling lonely and I just left my better half 45 minutes ago.She sleeps peacefully until the morning comes and you, you get contemplative thoughts on why you cant find a guy who is worthwhile, why you cant be happy ALONE and many more thoughts. Too bad, soo sad....for you of course...
I cant believe I can be glad about it, but I have been walked upon too much and given my all, my heart and my soul to everyone even you and with you I gave more then ALL, I gave love and you lied to me and then after I got my heart broken and stepped on, I came back to befriend you because I am a great friend, a better person, a better man than that. I hope the nights are long and cold for you and maybe it's cruel to wish that, but some deserve to get burned and I believe I am right when I say that this time, you deserve it. Winter is coming, enjoy those cold nights alone, all by yourself, cold biting at your ears, your nose.....
It's just around the corner...
contemplate that
Im happy, I am tired and it feels good to be cold to those who never gave a damn to those of who were better friends to them then they have ever known. For now I retire this, im sleepin cause work calls.
It's just around the corner, here comes the colors, the leaves change, the cool night air, the light breeze and then soon enough it's winter again, again so soon.... You will miss some of the best times you ever had...I'll make some of the best times I have ever had, again and this time with a new person who is just like me in one of the ways you arent and probably never could be, she is just as forgiving if not more forgiving than I. You're gonna wish you were too.
peace out for now.