There's a difference between Krunked and Fucked up.
So a lot of stuff has been going on in my life which is why I barely update. I'm also not online as much, its a good thing right? Recently I have been getting disappointed or let down a lot. Or really really annoyed. To the point where I just want to scream. I know this is not a good thing but what the hell am I suppose to do? I can't change people and their actions....so I must deal with it.
This halloween was really lame. The plans were changed and nothing was really planned thats probably why it sucked. I got yelled at for not getting candy but oh well. I was a sex kitten but my costume was ruined the Saturday before halloween. It made me mad this holiday sucked but I could have done something else? After that though, Johnny and I had some problems but I think they are solved now. It's been really cold and I have a lot of make up work so I dont seem him at school or hes in trouble. I just feel so stressed out all the time now that it's not even worth going to school. School shouldnt be like that. A lot of people depend on me and its like wow the pressure is on. Oh well though I guess thats the price you pay for being "popular". Thats a bunch of bullshit as well. My parents too.....gosh I don't even want to go on. I need to get a turtor so if any of you out their would want to. Please tell me I'll even pay. I'm so far behind its not even funny. Gosh....and someone needs to fix my computer.....anywho...
So this weekend was pretty fun.....a memorable one....if only I could rember half of it. Friday I went to Raes for the first time. I fought Ashley and I kicked her ass. But it was interesting seeing how Rae was at her house. I feel really bad sometimes, but once again nothing I can change about that. Anyways we all saw SAW 2 and that pissed me the fuck off. I mean yeah it was a pretty good plot and all that for a movie, but it just really pissed me off. Triggered something I guess. Then that Saturday I got ready for my halloween party. I was so excited and I had a killer costume....well kind of what a sex kitten would be if they wer on a cheap budget. Everyone came over which was Johnny, Dennis, Jessica, Kristen, and Ashley. Ashley and I were fuckin Pimpin. She was beautiful the best tooth fairy I have ever seen! Kristen finally saw her glow worm too. Then after awhile we decide that the real party was gonna happen. We had a half gallon of lord calvart and a fifth of smeirdof. I got fucked up, I drank the most as well. It was Ashley and Jessica's first time, and I hoped they liked it. I don't rember. I blacked out and basically missed the whole party. It scares me that I can just not rember something like that. I guess it was fun, I didn't get taken advantage though....which I can't say for other people. I guess I puicked all over myself and everyone did all over my room. My dad got mad but then he was happy that it happened here....so I'm not grounded. I woke up at four and couldnt go to the bathroom by myself so I crawled then Johnny came to bed with me, I was freezing. I hope everyone had a good time. If you want to know what happened between 10pm-4am youll have to ask Ashley or Jessica because I can't tell you. I was sick the next moring and still buzzin too. But I got to hear some stories. No ones parents found out besides Jessica's mom. But the whole school did and my brother friends find it so funny. Everytime they see me they make a remark. Oh well I don't really care. I guess that means I can party?
The puick smell is finally out of my room and my parents are forgotten. I'm not getting that shit faced for a long time though. Maybe buzzin. My mom is just worried that I'm gonna be an alcholic, but at least shes looking out for me. My brother seemed the most worried. I feel so bad for what happened and that I don't rember anything. I mean I'm sure I had fun. I'm postive. But I dont think anyone else did......gosh.....I feel so bad. I cried too. This weekend is gonna be a sobber one.
One thing to look forward too this month besides all the days off is the Senses Fail/Saves The Day tour with Emanuel and The Early November. I am so excited! I can't wait to sing my heart out and see my lover, Buddy.
I feel angry but blank at the same time right now. I have to go finish my homework too. I guess this was a long enough blog even though I have much more to say, but my hands are way tooo cold to type anything. Peace and love kids.
"Watch me PIMP this BITCH!" Jodi D.
This halloween was really lame. The plans were changed and nothing was really planned thats probably why it sucked. I got yelled at for not getting candy but oh well. I was a sex kitten but my costume was ruined the Saturday before halloween. It made me mad this holiday sucked but I could have done something else? After that though, Johnny and I had some problems but I think they are solved now. It's been really cold and I have a lot of make up work so I dont seem him at school or hes in trouble. I just feel so stressed out all the time now that it's not even worth going to school. School shouldnt be like that. A lot of people depend on me and its like wow the pressure is on. Oh well though I guess thats the price you pay for being "popular". Thats a bunch of bullshit as well. My parents too.....gosh I don't even want to go on. I need to get a turtor so if any of you out their would want to. Please tell me I'll even pay. I'm so far behind its not even funny. Gosh....and someone needs to fix my computer.....anywho...
So this weekend was pretty fun.....a memorable one....if only I could rember half of it. Friday I went to Raes for the first time. I fought Ashley and I kicked her ass. But it was interesting seeing how Rae was at her house. I feel really bad sometimes, but once again nothing I can change about that. Anyways we all saw SAW 2 and that pissed me the fuck off. I mean yeah it was a pretty good plot and all that for a movie, but it just really pissed me off. Triggered something I guess. Then that Saturday I got ready for my halloween party. I was so excited and I had a killer costume....well kind of what a sex kitten would be if they wer on a cheap budget. Everyone came over which was Johnny, Dennis, Jessica, Kristen, and Ashley. Ashley and I were fuckin Pimpin. She was beautiful the best tooth fairy I have ever seen! Kristen finally saw her glow worm too. Then after awhile we decide that the real party was gonna happen. We had a half gallon of lord calvart and a fifth of smeirdof. I got fucked up, I drank the most as well. It was Ashley and Jessica's first time, and I hoped they liked it. I don't rember. I blacked out and basically missed the whole party. It scares me that I can just not rember something like that. I guess it was fun, I didn't get taken advantage though....which I can't say for other people. I guess I puicked all over myself and everyone did all over my room. My dad got mad but then he was happy that it happened here....so I'm not grounded. I woke up at four and couldnt go to the bathroom by myself so I crawled then Johnny came to bed with me, I was freezing. I hope everyone had a good time. If you want to know what happened between 10pm-4am youll have to ask Ashley or Jessica because I can't tell you. I was sick the next moring and still buzzin too. But I got to hear some stories. No ones parents found out besides Jessica's mom. But the whole school did and my brother friends find it so funny. Everytime they see me they make a remark. Oh well I don't really care. I guess that means I can party?
The puick smell is finally out of my room and my parents are forgotten. I'm not getting that shit faced for a long time though. Maybe buzzin. My mom is just worried that I'm gonna be an alcholic, but at least shes looking out for me. My brother seemed the most worried. I feel so bad for what happened and that I don't rember anything. I mean I'm sure I had fun. I'm postive. But I dont think anyone else did......gosh.....I feel so bad. I cried too. This weekend is gonna be a sobber one.
One thing to look forward too this month besides all the days off is the Senses Fail/Saves The Day tour with Emanuel and The Early November. I am so excited! I can't wait to sing my heart out and see my lover, Buddy.
I feel angry but blank at the same time right now. I have to go finish my homework too. I guess this was a long enough blog even though I have much more to say, but my hands are way tooo cold to type anything. Peace and love kids.
"Watch me PIMP this BITCH!" Jodi D.