bipolar post
Last night was a lot of fun. Man it actually made me really happy. I hung out with John like all night long. We went to lots of places bought some CD's and went to steak n shake. And we like sat in this store for an hour and talked. Man i have quite a bit of respect for him. He's so funny omg he will talk to ANYBODY and he just seriously does not care. He was talkin to this one black girl and he was like yea all the ladies call me white chocolate and just all this extremely crazy random stuff. GAAAAAAAAHHH. And then we were on the way home and there were those like orange cones on the road. And we decided to steal one so i just stick my hand out the window and grab one. And it was so funny cuz i thought it was gonna be small but it was like ENORMOUS and kinda heavy. So then we went back and got another one. Wow it was just awesome. I tinkled my pants.
But seriously if it wasn't for John i really think i would've had an emotional breakdown i'm not even kidding. Man i've just been thinking horrible thoughts that i've never really thought before. Like i actually thought "i hate my life" and omg i've never thought that before. I mean i've like been unhappy with my life but wow. I'm just not the positive happy-go-lucky person i used to be. And reading some people's livejournals i find myself wanting to leave really nasty comments. I'm really ashamed with myself. I mean it's just not like me. I've become extremely emotional and all I wanna do is complain and bitch and moan in my livejournal. UHHH it's so stupid.
I hate what i've become.
But seriously if it wasn't for John i really think i would've had an emotional breakdown i'm not even kidding. Man i've just been thinking horrible thoughts that i've never really thought before. Like i actually thought "i hate my life" and omg i've never thought that before. I mean i've like been unhappy with my life but wow. I'm just not the positive happy-go-lucky person i used to be. And reading some people's livejournals i find myself wanting to leave really nasty comments. I'm really ashamed with myself. I mean it's just not like me. I've become extremely emotional and all I wanna do is complain and bitch and moan in my livejournal. UHHH it's so stupid.
I hate what i've become.