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i almost died today. well, maybe not, but it sure felt like i was going to. i was walking from the library down at Marshall to my geography class, and some guy in a van came whizzing from the parking lot and almost hit me. he didn't even slow down, even though he saw me. it made me so mad. i want the opportunity to almost hit him so he knows how it feels. ok, i don't, but it made my day even worse. my emotions are all out of whack, as usual. it's no shock to me. one minute i'm happy, and then the next minute i'm upset or depressed about something. it's a strange feeling, and i don't like it. i'm not like this all the time, but when i am i hate it.
he talked to me today. i'm getting to the point that i hate when he talks to me. he actually hasn't for a while, and so, of course, i wanted him to. but now that he has, i wish he hadn't. because then i think about him. and i don't want to think about him. or maybe i do. i want to, but i don't, whatever that means. i'm just sick of hiding how i really feel, like i do every time. i know i'll never get the courage to tell him, so i don't know why i torture myself. i make myself angry.
new subject because i don't want to think anymore about the previous one.
only two more days of school and then finals, and i will be free. well, until the next Monday when i begin the wonderful world of summer school. joy. i'll be down at Marshall from 9:00 AM till 4:00 PM almost everyday. and Marshall raising their tuition makes me mad. it cost $816 for two summer classes. it's ridiculous. hmm, oh well. my current classes are going pretty well. my grades are great, so i'm not worried about any of them. i can basically fail some of the finals and still get an A in the class. but i don't plan on failing any of my finals. i'll probably be getting a 4.0 this semester, which makes me happy. i've worked so hard. and i've actually had a few of the more difficult classes. but i did it. and i'm so relieved. now i get to start it all over again in the fall. i want out of Marshall ASAP. my plan is to have all my classes finished in two more years, and then the next fall i'll do my student teaching. that's the plan. i'll see if it goes through. knowing Marshall, it probably won't, but i can always hope.
i'm not really sure what else is going on in my life. school is really the biggest part. i haven't really had a whole lot of time for anything else. i've been so busy. i really need to improve my social life, haha. summer should bring more fun. at least i hope so.
he talked to me today. i'm getting to the point that i hate when he talks to me. he actually hasn't for a while, and so, of course, i wanted him to. but now that he has, i wish he hadn't. because then i think about him. and i don't want to think about him. or maybe i do. i want to, but i don't, whatever that means. i'm just sick of hiding how i really feel, like i do every time. i know i'll never get the courage to tell him, so i don't know why i torture myself. i make myself angry.
new subject because i don't want to think anymore about the previous one.
only two more days of school and then finals, and i will be free. well, until the next Monday when i begin the wonderful world of summer school. joy. i'll be down at Marshall from 9:00 AM till 4:00 PM almost everyday. and Marshall raising their tuition makes me mad. it cost $816 for two summer classes. it's ridiculous. hmm, oh well. my current classes are going pretty well. my grades are great, so i'm not worried about any of them. i can basically fail some of the finals and still get an A in the class. but i don't plan on failing any of my finals. i'll probably be getting a 4.0 this semester, which makes me happy. i've worked so hard. and i've actually had a few of the more difficult classes. but i did it. and i'm so relieved. now i get to start it all over again in the fall. i want out of Marshall ASAP. my plan is to have all my classes finished in two more years, and then the next fall i'll do my student teaching. that's the plan. i'll see if it goes through. knowing Marshall, it probably won't, but i can always hope.
i'm not really sure what else is going on in my life. school is really the biggest part. i haven't really had a whole lot of time for anything else. i've been so busy. i really need to improve my social life, haha. summer should bring more fun. at least i hope so.