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things just are not going right.
this sucks a lot. and i don't know what to do. and i don't know which way to turn and i think im running out of patience and optimism and its like im slowly wearing down and i just don't know how i can do this. how can i wait it out?
i mean am i fooling myself into thinking i am happy? or am i really happy and im trying to chase away my pessimism? i dont know, and i wish i could just vent to someone. anyone. but hes my best friend, so when he is the problem, who do i have to vent?
ugh i want to go to the gym to run out this frustration but seriously, my body doesnt want to move. i just want to sleep through the rest of the day. because i dont feel like thinking. honestly i think its the thinking that has been getting me into trouble.
i may be ridiculously emotional and stupid.