i am never broken....

[googlybritt]

So life is just insane isn't it? One moment I feel that everything has settled down, like I can breath again, and the next its all back up again. I just feel so useless. Everyone is telling me not to be sad, not to let anything get me down. But who can tell someone how to feel? I would like to feel that way, but sometimes it just isn't possible. I just don;t have enough time, there just aren't enough hours in the day to do everything that is needed. And that is in itself a useless feeling. So badly I want to help people, but theres nothing I can do. That rips me up inside. And the fact that I have been blessed to have so many wonderful people who love me and care for me, and how I just don't see myself as deserving of this. That tears me up inside. The confusion of having feelings for someone that just can't seem to ever work out, wanting something so badly and finally given a glimpse of a chance at it, and just knowing not to go there because it is far too good. That just rips at my insides. it really does. I know this is a way dramatic entry and I'm sorry to complain about my life but I just need to vent.

^*+*^If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we're all OK
And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
I won't be idle with despair
I will gather myself around my faith
For light does the darkness most fear
My hands are small, I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
Poverty stole your golden shoes
It didn't steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me
But I knew it wasn't ever after
We'll fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what's right
'Cause where there's a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
**I am never broken**
**In the end only kindness matters^*+*^