my reflective end of the summer where am i now post
so my therapy is over, wyoming is done. i came here hoping for so much, and i think i really got it. i learned a shit load, and i spent way too much time with myself. but that is what i wanted. i needed room to breathe so i went to 10,000 and found some. i saw the stars like never before and i grew roots in an ancient study. poetry aside, i am so stress free and relaxed. i am so much more appreciative of what i have and don't have. and i think most importantly, i have found more of who i am and what i am and what i will be. this wasnt me here because my parents let me come, rather i was here to learn what i will become.
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i found out some stuff
i like structure, schedules and plans. especially if i am not in charge. i like to organize in great detail, that is probably why my living quarters are always such a mess, if i tried to actually organize it, i would have a catalog and map of exact locations of everything and it would probably be labeled. way too much work for me.
i have an amazing family, immediate and extended. thinking of the love i have for them brings tears to my eyes, it really does. i came much closer to my momma and sister, i called them almost everyday. just because i wanted to see what was up with them. that is always a good thing. i am much closer to my cousins and whatnot now too. cary told me he thinks of me as his child. aww, i love them!
when i sit down with an interesting concept and really try to pick it apart and learn it and all of its aspects i can waste away an entire day, gain a sunburn and write a notebook full of notes.
i could never live in the country by myself or with anyone i dont think. i need to shop, i need to see people and i need culture. not saying there isnt culture here, but after 5 rodeos, they get old. especially when the cowboys arent cute. i think living the country is a religion. you really just have to dedicate yourself to it, sacrifice things for the cause and be grateful for what you do have.
nature is more complex and awesome than i ever really could have imagined. herbalism can mean so much, there is so much to learn. it is just really kinda creepy when you think about how much i didnt know before this.
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tomorrow i set sail. tonight i am spending the night at Curtis' and his wifes house and watching the meteor shower. after his wife gets back from a meeting in the morning we are taking off towards laramie, wyoming. it should be about an 8 hour drive and we are setting up tent at 11,000. the sky is going to be insanely beautiful. especially with the meteor shower. friday i am getting up and driving through scenic rocky mountain park to get to Denver, Co and chilling with my gma and family. Satuday i hit kansas and missouri. in time for the Sunday family dinner in Mexico. the next week is full of pool lounging, shopping, eating, smoking and drinking. i have plans to meet up with Jeremy Horton and really want to see the CoMo crew. You guys wanna go shopping with me? Friday I am heading back to STL to make the BBking concert on Saturday. Another week of vegging out and then school. And then school. and then school.
I have a lot to bring back. Tons and tons of herbal rememdies. At least 15 bottles for my medicine cabinet alone. Lots of jewelry for me because I lost all my jewelry in the apt. move. And more herbal remedies. Some glassware and herbs. And then some more herbs.
I am ready to leave my desert wasteland, the Star Valley. But it doesnt leave a bad taste in my mouth, rather a lasting impression on my brain. Oh the poetry.
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i found out some stuff
i like structure, schedules and plans. especially if i am not in charge. i like to organize in great detail, that is probably why my living quarters are always such a mess, if i tried to actually organize it, i would have a catalog and map of exact locations of everything and it would probably be labeled. way too much work for me.
i have an amazing family, immediate and extended. thinking of the love i have for them brings tears to my eyes, it really does. i came much closer to my momma and sister, i called them almost everyday. just because i wanted to see what was up with them. that is always a good thing. i am much closer to my cousins and whatnot now too. cary told me he thinks of me as his child. aww, i love them!
when i sit down with an interesting concept and really try to pick it apart and learn it and all of its aspects i can waste away an entire day, gain a sunburn and write a notebook full of notes.
i could never live in the country by myself or with anyone i dont think. i need to shop, i need to see people and i need culture. not saying there isnt culture here, but after 5 rodeos, they get old. especially when the cowboys arent cute. i think living the country is a religion. you really just have to dedicate yourself to it, sacrifice things for the cause and be grateful for what you do have.
nature is more complex and awesome than i ever really could have imagined. herbalism can mean so much, there is so much to learn. it is just really kinda creepy when you think about how much i didnt know before this.
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tomorrow i set sail. tonight i am spending the night at Curtis' and his wifes house and watching the meteor shower. after his wife gets back from a meeting in the morning we are taking off towards laramie, wyoming. it should be about an 8 hour drive and we are setting up tent at 11,000. the sky is going to be insanely beautiful. especially with the meteor shower. friday i am getting up and driving through scenic rocky mountain park to get to Denver, Co and chilling with my gma and family. Satuday i hit kansas and missouri. in time for the Sunday family dinner in Mexico. the next week is full of pool lounging, shopping, eating, smoking and drinking. i have plans to meet up with Jeremy Horton and really want to see the CoMo crew. You guys wanna go shopping with me? Friday I am heading back to STL to make the BBking concert on Saturday. Another week of vegging out and then school. And then school. and then school.
I have a lot to bring back. Tons and tons of herbal rememdies. At least 15 bottles for my medicine cabinet alone. Lots of jewelry for me because I lost all my jewelry in the apt. move. And more herbal remedies. Some glassware and herbs. And then some more herbs.
I am ready to leave my desert wasteland, the Star Valley. But it doesnt leave a bad taste in my mouth, rather a lasting impression on my brain. Oh the poetry.