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I'll be doing something or thinking about something / someone else and i'll randomly get flashes of memore. Its not quick its the whole memory every feeling, ever facial expression, every word said, every touch. When we first broke up this happened a lot the first 2 months but then it gradually got fewer and fewer until there were none and lately i get them a lot more. Its hard idk why these feelings are coming back like this we have been over for who long? Maybe its because our would of been 1 year is coming up. Every month i go through that day with out a s ingle thought of him why the memories? why the feelings of sadness? why the feeling of emptiness? we both have dated other people and both have moved on . we both are completly different people. so i don't know why i miss him. we broke up so long ago and the memories are as vivid as the day they happened. its wierd cause once they start happening i can't shut it off it kind of like takes over. its hard to explain maybe its because ik nick is coming down this weekend and if i see him there is a chance that he will be there. i don't think thats the reason though... idk its hard living life like this. its hard trying to be happy when ur not. idk something that i have to work on. and i just feel so alone sometimes and like i have no one to talk to about all of this.