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So, some major things have gone on in my life very recently. As usual, I've talked to more people than I can handle at one time online. However, it's funny how great things happen when you least expect them. I don't know what I'm experiencing right now with this special guy that I just got to know recently, but let me say one thing--it's a feeling that I haven't experienced in over two years. I don't know if I'm ready to give my heart though, because I just have been raised to be very analytical and calculating. I think part of the reason why I never date anyone or find anyone satisfying is because the ones that I have really liked in the past never reciprocated those feeling back for me. This is different now with this guy. I really, really can't stop thinking about him, and the feelings are so mutual. We've only seen each other once, but have talked on the phone for hours and hours. I really have not felt like this with anyone, and I think I'm ready to give it all I can to see him more often, though it is difficult due to some circumstances. Sometimes great things in life don't come easily. If we both truly care about each other, it'll show, and if not, then that will be apparent as well. I know that I might leave soon, but I dont fucking care. Our lives and moments come once. Live for once and you may experience great things.