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I have a bunch I could write. Ive had a lot of fun lately and seen a lot of people and had a lot of hard times too. It's really weird when they are at the same time though. I saw Hayley at Hamlin Pub. I was there for Lisa's birthday and also saw girls from highschool who still did not speak with me haha. Anyway She walked in with her pretty red hair and all I could do was try not to think about her, her family, her brother, my Mom. How do you talk to someone who's brother you were in love with died and tell her your Mom is dead too? I did my best not to cry. I wrote a note to have her Mom call me and that I missed them on a napkin, I couldn't get up the courage to walk over to her, so I had the waitress give her the note. I was so distracted and tried chiming in on conversation when I recognized sentences. After the handoff, I watched over another girl's shoulder as she got the note. She reacted well but did not look around for me. I was more able to focus on the fun of the evening. Lisa asked what it was all about. I explained and almost started balling but then pulled myself together and the rest of the night went well, like nothing had happened at all.