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my dad is an asshole. i have serious issues with him. im not even sure i want to know him anymore, i think of him and i boil over with anger. the floppy disk with my book backed up on it doenst work. so most of my work is just gone. i dont want to rewrite it, im afraid it will never be as good as it was the first time. im pretty sure ill get the job at smoky bones, the service manager thinks im cute. which will be great because there is a smokey bones right near ucf so i can transferr over the summer when i move. but from march 22 til then, i just may live out of my car. i wont pay anyone rent. i simply cant, not with the plans im making. i am stressed out, but im also very optimistic and know i can get this done. its what i chose to do. things with aimee are going well, but i know she isnt good for me. we recently started saying i love you. which i think is bs on both our parts.... i dont feel it the same way i remembered it, and i dont think shes capable of the type of love im looking for. i need to end it. i keep saying that. because there is something better, so much better. i hate it, that 2 people can be so perfect for each other, have every reason in the world to be together including physical attraction, and still manage to stay friends. im going to do my taxes.