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I know I'm going to regret this when my alarm goes off at 7:30 a.m. and I have to drag myself out of bed for class but it's been so.freakin.long. Any entry is way overdue.
All in all, life's great. Not without its ups and downs, of course, but I'm doing quite well. My summer conundrum seems to finally be settled. Or at least it will be as of tomorrow afternoon when I officially pay for my LSAT course. I'm staying in Montreal for May and taking "History of Communication" and the LSAT prep course at night. Then, I'm writing the test on June 11th, working anywhere that will hire me from mid June to the end of July and then volunteering at a home for street children in India for the month of August through a student-run organization called AIC. One of my roomates has been really involved this year and she's going in June for about six weeks. I really hope it all works out - I think it'll be an absolutely incredible experience - but it's all so daunting. I leave for England on September 20th and probably won't be home until the end of June 2008. AHHHH! It's just a lot to swallow and so many important decisions need to be made now. The LSAT thing has been on my mind a lot lately. I thought I had completely ruled out law but now it's resurfacing as a definite option for post-grad, but I always question whether my heart is ACTUALLY in it, or if I've just been so disheartened by reality that I've lost any confidence in pursuing something slightly riskier or unstable. We'll see though - there's still plenty of time. And although I wish the prep course didn't cost so much, there's no harm in giving the test a try.
I've been thinking a lot about not being at McGill for an entire year. I'm so excited to go on exchange. It's something I've always told myself I would do, so I'm happy it's actually happening. Fuck, after all of the stress and paper work and unnecessary running around I owe it to myself to not only go, but to make it the best possible experience. I'm worried about money and my god-awful spending habits, but I'm going/HAVE to make a serious effort to be careful. I can't blow all of my spending money the first week I get there no matter how freakin excited I may be.
School is overwhelming me to such an extent that it's rather laughable. I still have so many papers due before my first exam on the 13th. Most of the work is for my 400-level film class with the always amazing Schantz (!) but I feel an added pressure to do well because it's him. I don't think I've ever met someone so creative and eloquent and well...brilliant....and it's quite daunting to think that he is the one who marks everything I hand in for that class. So far it's worked in my favour, I think, but I know he's expecting a lot for this term paper and I'm at a loss as to how to approach it. He doesn't seem to be fond of providing instructions for papers. He wrote, "Come up with an argument using 1-3 films studied this semester. Fifteen pages" - just wonderful.
My family's visiting in two weeks and I'm really looking forward to it. I miss them a lot, especially this semester, and it doesn't look like I'll be spending much time at home this summer. Ben offered to sublet his place to me. I think I could get it for a pretty good price, but it would also be so.....strange. I don't know. Fuck - so many decisions to make. I can't deal.
And I need sleep.
This entry sucks.
I promise a better one soon.....
!
All in all, life's great. Not without its ups and downs, of course, but I'm doing quite well. My summer conundrum seems to finally be settled. Or at least it will be as of tomorrow afternoon when I officially pay for my LSAT course. I'm staying in Montreal for May and taking "History of Communication" and the LSAT prep course at night. Then, I'm writing the test on June 11th, working anywhere that will hire me from mid June to the end of July and then volunteering at a home for street children in India for the month of August through a student-run organization called AIC. One of my roomates has been really involved this year and she's going in June for about six weeks. I really hope it all works out - I think it'll be an absolutely incredible experience - but it's all so daunting. I leave for England on September 20th and probably won't be home until the end of June 2008. AHHHH! It's just a lot to swallow and so many important decisions need to be made now. The LSAT thing has been on my mind a lot lately. I thought I had completely ruled out law but now it's resurfacing as a definite option for post-grad, but I always question whether my heart is ACTUALLY in it, or if I've just been so disheartened by reality that I've lost any confidence in pursuing something slightly riskier or unstable. We'll see though - there's still plenty of time. And although I wish the prep course didn't cost so much, there's no harm in giving the test a try.
I've been thinking a lot about not being at McGill for an entire year. I'm so excited to go on exchange. It's something I've always told myself I would do, so I'm happy it's actually happening. Fuck, after all of the stress and paper work and unnecessary running around I owe it to myself to not only go, but to make it the best possible experience. I'm worried about money and my god-awful spending habits, but I'm going/HAVE to make a serious effort to be careful. I can't blow all of my spending money the first week I get there no matter how freakin excited I may be.
School is overwhelming me to such an extent that it's rather laughable. I still have so many papers due before my first exam on the 13th. Most of the work is for my 400-level film class with the always amazing Schantz (!) but I feel an added pressure to do well because it's him. I don't think I've ever met someone so creative and eloquent and well...brilliant....and it's quite daunting to think that he is the one who marks everything I hand in for that class. So far it's worked in my favour, I think, but I know he's expecting a lot for this term paper and I'm at a loss as to how to approach it. He doesn't seem to be fond of providing instructions for papers. He wrote, "Come up with an argument using 1-3 films studied this semester. Fifteen pages" - just wonderful.
My family's visiting in two weeks and I'm really looking forward to it. I miss them a lot, especially this semester, and it doesn't look like I'll be spending much time at home this summer. Ben offered to sublet his place to me. I think I could get it for a pretty good price, but it would also be so.....strange. I don't know. Fuck - so many decisions to make. I can't deal.
And I need sleep.
This entry sucks.
I promise a better one soon.....
!