Looking Backwards
I just had reason for checking out LJ again, and I read all my old posts.....damn. If there was ever proof that Depo-Provera causes insanity, it is here in the archives of my LJ. I have a tendency to write only when I am pissed, mainly because when I am happy, I am daydreaming and fantasizing about delicious moments.
I am proud of myself, I have come real far, from the scared, self-hating creature that couldn't handle looking in the mirror without feeling intense shame for everything. Don't get me wrong, when shit hits the fan, I'm sure that a bug will get in me to write about it. That doesn't mean that I dont have incredible experiences and people in my life.
Right now, I am so fucking happy. I have been singing myself dizzy with joy, staying up late, waking up early, and truly loving being alive. I have an enormous capacity for love, and lately I've been using it. Seriously good times. However, I am exhausted...... I think that it is nap time.
I am proud of myself, I have come real far, from the scared, self-hating creature that couldn't handle looking in the mirror without feeling intense shame for everything. Don't get me wrong, when shit hits the fan, I'm sure that a bug will get in me to write about it. That doesn't mean that I dont have incredible experiences and people in my life.
Right now, I am so fucking happy. I have been singing myself dizzy with joy, staying up late, waking up early, and truly loving being alive. I have an enormous capacity for love, and lately I've been using it. Seriously good times. However, I am exhausted...... I think that it is nap time.