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Argh.
Why must my job be such an effing pain? About a month ago my Boss got together with me over dinner and was asking me some questions as sort of a mid year review. One of them was "When have you felt unmotivated in your job lately?" so I named off a number of moments when it was crazy stressful. Another was "When have you felt motivated in your job?"...I actually answered "um...".
Each day I am in this job, I hate it more and more, and each day I feel closer to quitting because it's so damn stressful to me. No matter how hard I work to keep it from being stressful, someone always goes and messes it up one way or another. And no matter how hard I work at it, I don't see a lot of benefit.
Lately I've been staying late to help work on something I'm actually interested in and enjoy, however yesterday, and I'm feeling each day now for the next month or two, it's going to get too busy for me to do that.
I think my immune system is starting to get affected...that or it's my imagination...but I'm just so tired each morning, no matter how early I go to bed. When I was with Emily this past weekend, I'd actually wake up early, because I felt energized and stuff...free of stress...and I really felt healthy...healthier anyway.
Why must my job be such an effing pain? About a month ago my Boss got together with me over dinner and was asking me some questions as sort of a mid year review. One of them was "When have you felt unmotivated in your job lately?" so I named off a number of moments when it was crazy stressful. Another was "When have you felt motivated in your job?"...I actually answered "um...".
Each day I am in this job, I hate it more and more, and each day I feel closer to quitting because it's so damn stressful to me. No matter how hard I work to keep it from being stressful, someone always goes and messes it up one way or another. And no matter how hard I work at it, I don't see a lot of benefit.
Lately I've been staying late to help work on something I'm actually interested in and enjoy, however yesterday, and I'm feeling each day now for the next month or two, it's going to get too busy for me to do that.
I think my immune system is starting to get affected...that or it's my imagination...but I'm just so tired each morning, no matter how early I go to bed. When I was with Emily this past weekend, I'd actually wake up early, because I felt energized and stuff...free of stress...and I really felt healthy...healthier anyway.