what we want will make no difference

[goodtodiefor]

all day i have had this expression on my face.
its the ugliest/most honest thing i have ever seen. it suits me well.

i have finally become numb. i know ive said this before. now i can feel the truth from the bottom of my heart.its just heavy and dull.my chest feels like it has caved in. i havent smiled once today.
i cannot cry. i do not feel offense from the things i used to. true happiness hasnt shone through these most recent smiles. i just dont care and ive come to realize everything was a lie.
this goes out to no one in particular.
i just cant feel anything but disappointment at this time. im sure this feeling will last. this isn't a phase. just an epiphany.

i have nothing to say to you.

this is a reminder to myself that i've lost it all. you are there but i can not see myself in you anymore. not to suggest that i do not love you. but as for caring about how anything affects me- that has disappeared.

i have nothing to say to you.
this goes out to no one in particular.
this is a reminder to myself that i've lost it all.

These tears you cry
Have come to late
Take back the lies
The hurt, the blame