saturdaisy
Yesterday was the beloved Eva's birthday. It was super fun. There's nothing I like better in the world than pretending to be people in videogames and shooting eachother with drumsticks and toy mouses. Oh and braking into old ladies backyards (haha Eva billy was so brave, so was ary). And i love chocolat.And you should kissy wissy billy and i loooove you.
Today I almost cried but i couldnt cause i was in public n shit. I have to play a concert tomorrow where i'm playing a piece thats supoosedly the hardest timpani piece and is made for two timpanists but I have to do it alone. So my dad wrote me a combined part but now i have to play with 6 drums! so its super hard. and i wanted to cry at rehearsel today because:a)i couldnt play jack shit.b)the concert is tomorrow and i was so unprepared. c)i felt so stupid about myself cause i have all these dreams about me being a supercool percussionist and i coulnt do that. so the first 90 mins sucked like a fucker.but then i played a little better for the second 90 mins. and at the end of rehearsle i stayed with my dad and ed the conductor and just practiced it for an hour and finally got it. so now im happy cause it atually sounds really good.
And when i came home ary was super sweet to me cause i was kinda shaky after that. so since my parents were eating dinner w/ the neighbors we went to city walk. so we saw the mvie Crash. It was one of the best fucking films i've ever seen. it's main theme is racism but the way it's put into a movie is completely original. i recommend you to see it if you consider yourself a smart and/or intellectual person cause if you're not you dont deserve it. Then we just ran around city walk and got coffee and tried our best not to be racist to all the blacks and mexicans at city walk. we had a philosophical talk at a store called zen zone. then ary had a last smoke and we laughed at people having their prom at city walk and then drove home makng a cars alarm go off in the parking lot cause the bass was very loud.
So tomorrow i have my concert. woot. im extremely scared but kinda excited to. oh and i finally discovered a good quality in myself. i think more about the world around me than myself. i talk about myself cause i am me and i cant make me go away obviously it's just there right in front of myself. but i find myself thinking about all these other people and things and places. it makes me happier cause compared to every good and bad thing thats going on in our world im as worthless as a penny. but hey a hundred bizzilion pennies does make a difference which is why every human makes a difference.
I like silence. it is a nice thing when used at the right time. sometimes its good not to talk. ary once spent a whole day without speaking.
I'm so excited for interlochen. more than you can ever imagine. new people, new things, amazing artists and musicians who think the way i do. It's amazing. And who knows. Perhaps camp romance awaits? hahaha. I'm not surprised if you didnt read this but if you id: good for you! as dr hssaine would say.
Good Night .
:)
ps: The only people i believe in are children because they're the only ones who truly believe.
Today I almost cried but i couldnt cause i was in public n shit. I have to play a concert tomorrow where i'm playing a piece thats supoosedly the hardest timpani piece and is made for two timpanists but I have to do it alone. So my dad wrote me a combined part but now i have to play with 6 drums! so its super hard. and i wanted to cry at rehearsel today because:a)i couldnt play jack shit.b)the concert is tomorrow and i was so unprepared. c)i felt so stupid about myself cause i have all these dreams about me being a supercool percussionist and i coulnt do that. so the first 90 mins sucked like a fucker.but then i played a little better for the second 90 mins. and at the end of rehearsle i stayed with my dad and ed the conductor and just practiced it for an hour and finally got it. so now im happy cause it atually sounds really good.
And when i came home ary was super sweet to me cause i was kinda shaky after that. so since my parents were eating dinner w/ the neighbors we went to city walk. so we saw the mvie Crash. It was one of the best fucking films i've ever seen. it's main theme is racism but the way it's put into a movie is completely original. i recommend you to see it if you consider yourself a smart and/or intellectual person cause if you're not you dont deserve it. Then we just ran around city walk and got coffee and tried our best not to be racist to all the blacks and mexicans at city walk. we had a philosophical talk at a store called zen zone. then ary had a last smoke and we laughed at people having their prom at city walk and then drove home makng a cars alarm go off in the parking lot cause the bass was very loud.
So tomorrow i have my concert. woot. im extremely scared but kinda excited to. oh and i finally discovered a good quality in myself. i think more about the world around me than myself. i talk about myself cause i am me and i cant make me go away obviously it's just there right in front of myself. but i find myself thinking about all these other people and things and places. it makes me happier cause compared to every good and bad thing thats going on in our world im as worthless as a penny. but hey a hundred bizzilion pennies does make a difference which is why every human makes a difference.
I like silence. it is a nice thing when used at the right time. sometimes its good not to talk. ary once spent a whole day without speaking.
I'm so excited for interlochen. more than you can ever imagine. new people, new things, amazing artists and musicians who think the way i do. It's amazing. And who knows. Perhaps camp romance awaits? hahaha. I'm not surprised if you didnt read this but if you id: good for you! as dr hssaine would say.
Good Night .
:)
ps: The only people i believe in are children because they're the only ones who truly believe.