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post Shabbaton entry...somuch to write that abt but maybe not here bc i think i might finally use my moleskin.....
i am very tired, very sore, very black and blue,, and very much wanting to make connections with the kids. i know that im being hard on myself but when i think about the effects that my advisors had on me, its hard not to wish that i could do it for someone else. i have to be patient and let the kids learn taht they can trust me and that i am there for them. a few have made stes towards it and i guess i should try and focus on that.
i was placed in a romm w a girl who was in NCSY w me that i dont think i spoke maybe 2 words to. however over the course of the weekend she, her friends and i spoke and become friendly. theres always a reason why Gd puts you in certain places at certain times.
there was a bit of a panic when 2 of them went missing a.k.a left the room after curfew and disappeared. they were found and im not sure that they understand what they did or what they were missing. there are always a few ppl who just mock everything abt the Shabbaton and what its about, i have to say that i was pretty open w them and tried to help them as best they could. it upsets me that theyre missing such an amazing oppertunity for closeness w themselves, other ppl, and Gd. but everything at its time.
gtg my Bro's home and needs the fam comp, gnight all
love and faith
i am very tired, very sore, very black and blue,, and very much wanting to make connections with the kids. i know that im being hard on myself but when i think about the effects that my advisors had on me, its hard not to wish that i could do it for someone else. i have to be patient and let the kids learn taht they can trust me and that i am there for them. a few have made stes towards it and i guess i should try and focus on that.
i was placed in a romm w a girl who was in NCSY w me that i dont think i spoke maybe 2 words to. however over the course of the weekend she, her friends and i spoke and become friendly. theres always a reason why Gd puts you in certain places at certain times.
there was a bit of a panic when 2 of them went missing a.k.a left the room after curfew and disappeared. they were found and im not sure that they understand what they did or what they were missing. there are always a few ppl who just mock everything abt the Shabbaton and what its about, i have to say that i was pretty open w them and tried to help them as best they could. it upsets me that theyre missing such an amazing oppertunity for closeness w themselves, other ppl, and Gd. but everything at its time.
gtg my Bro's home and needs the fam comp, gnight all
love and faith