Shitty days
Stressed out. Welcome to my life. I feel like I need to just get out of school because at the rate I'm going, no colleges will even think about letting me in. Its all up to my volleyball skills, and sadly I have none.
So this is what I go through on a daily basis. I wake up and from the minute I walk through the doors to school I'm frustrated, stressed out and have that empty feeling in the pit of my stomach, why because first off I have to deal with Chem, of which I sadly have a D in at the moment. I have that empty feeling because we have to turn in three worksheets and basically I did all I could, which, is about less than half of it. So in a way I feel accomplished because I at least started and tried as hard as I could, but on the other hand, I know the minute I walk into the room my petty accomplishment will be swiped up and given a big fat F. To make matters, o so much better, I sit by these people, o god, that would shrivle up and die if they had under a 95% in any of their classes and understand and love everything about Chemistry. BARF. So I feel sick throuhgout the whole class, wondering what memo I missed and how the fuck anyone could possibly get an A in this class.
And thats just my first class. From there on it slowly gets worse and by the end of the day my brain is fried to the maximum and I feel like I'm not worthy of life . Wow, thats just the academic part of life too.
Then theres volleyball, which, sucks by the way. I'm so frustrated. I actually don't even want to talk about it.
Then theres my boyfriend which is pretty much stressful at all times and drives me absolutely insane, making everything else o so FUN.
I don't even want to get started on the parent situation because it would take way to much energy. I can't do it.
The thing is I really enjoy parts of life though, and I know that I have a fairly good one and am appreciative of what I have but I guess its just the shitty days that get to me.
So this is what I go through on a daily basis. I wake up and from the minute I walk through the doors to school I'm frustrated, stressed out and have that empty feeling in the pit of my stomach, why because first off I have to deal with Chem, of which I sadly have a D in at the moment. I have that empty feeling because we have to turn in three worksheets and basically I did all I could, which, is about less than half of it. So in a way I feel accomplished because I at least started and tried as hard as I could, but on the other hand, I know the minute I walk into the room my petty accomplishment will be swiped up and given a big fat F. To make matters, o so much better, I sit by these people, o god, that would shrivle up and die if they had under a 95% in any of their classes and understand and love everything about Chemistry. BARF. So I feel sick throuhgout the whole class, wondering what memo I missed and how the fuck anyone could possibly get an A in this class.
And thats just my first class. From there on it slowly gets worse and by the end of the day my brain is fried to the maximum and I feel like I'm not worthy of life . Wow, thats just the academic part of life too.
Then theres volleyball, which, sucks by the way. I'm so frustrated. I actually don't even want to talk about it.
Then theres my boyfriend which is pretty much stressful at all times and drives me absolutely insane, making everything else o so FUN.
I don't even want to get started on the parent situation because it would take way to much energy. I can't do it.
The thing is I really enjoy parts of life though, and I know that I have a fairly good one and am appreciative of what I have but I guess its just the shitty days that get to me.