only ashes
Hey babies. these past few days its like the life is just getting sucked out from me. every day brings fourth more stress, more anxiety, and more of a physical depression. its almost as if just waking up every day of the week has just worn me out, i can come home from school everyday and just sleep..all day. i think i might have chronic fatigue or something.
all this homecoming float stuff is stressing me out the most, having 30some odd people in our class isn't a benefit, it was so easy last year with our nice little group but this year its like everybody has their own ideas..not everyone wants to cooperate, its insane. somehow ive been put in charge of supplies, which i don't mind because this year i have no trust as far as float building in anybody but myself and im going to see that its done in a way i want it, call it selfish, call me a bitch, and ill probably end up acting like one on building day, but ya know..its like it has to get done. luckally i have my group in that class supporting me and thanking me for my efforts and new found authoratative attitude....though i really don't have much authority at all. but yeah anyways.. i just hope tha everybody can work together, stick to the plans, and not hold grudges against other people in the class because really..its just not going to work.
If your going to sit back and have that big of an ego about how the float isn't going to work then why don't you get off your ass and do something about it instead of just talking about it?....sorry.
Heather and I are working on changing our lunch period to 4th. it can be done if Heather is willing to drop choir, I want fourth lunch sooooo bad but then I know Heather wants it too but she also wants choir so..im hoping she will choose friends at lunch!!! haha.
So after a lot of thought I am settling with the fact that I do indeed like Garett. Im not beating around the bush on this one either. Hes just really a sweet guy, hes so committed and truthful, down to earth and my my quite attractive. He said he likes me too but..we haven't really talked about it in a few days so we will just have to see how this one works out won't we?
The Amanda's are such a threat. haha here we cooommeee. haha yeah..the in-your-face-wild-no-shame Amandas..... BAM das who we be yo haha. love ya panda.
Sometimes when Im bored I just get online and start reading lyrics from different bands, just as a sort of inspiration for my own writing. I read a bit from Something Corporate tonight which origionally is a band i don't really care for..just because of the lead guy on the piano haha. But some of the lyrics I can totally see being in my own lyric journal its insane. So being the total chat dork that I am I added the lyrics I especially liked on away messages. hehe.
Go Michael on tuba!!! Go Bryce on football!!! GO JOHANSEN!!!
yoga today was awesome it was so relaxing and just fun, I was deeply into it....if only I could have had my candles, incence, and mini zen garden. haaha.
Jessica I really do believe you are a strong person, despite your drama, I have no doubt you will always be the one to make it through. Honestly Im not just saying that youve become one of my really good friends and yes my dear..i love you too.
I suppose that wraps it up for tonight!!! Im going to go read. TGIF!!!
xox
MADlovelovelove