my sherona
Heyy babies. be prepaired because this is going to be a rather gripey entry. so i met this guy earlier this summer, hes awesome i mean really, but it just so happened that he likes me and i can't return the feelings he has for me. i feel terrible, i don't think ive ever felt such trememdous guilt. hes been nothing but wonderful, its nothing he did, its nothing he isn't, its just me knowing that its not right. i feel like ive done him wrong, when in my heart i know ive been fair and truthful to the best of my being. for so long i was honestly unsure..he said to keep persuing ideas of the two of us, so i did, and once I did I realized that for me it wasn't right. One of my great friends who is close to this guy, i feel like she feels im doing the wrong thing..and wish she could listen to me, but neither of them can. he blocks out what i say and shes sympathising with him. i just feel so caught in the middle of something that i shouldn't have to be in the middle of, i just feel like everyones in on it, lately im getting people out the wazo IMing me telling me that I should go for him or not go for him or whatnot, but other peoples opinnions mean nothing to me, I've made my decision for myself, I know whats right for me, and Iwish people would leave things to him and I.
this morning i got up and went to heathers. we just about finished our HISTORY project, so that was cool. shes my homegirl, heather if your reading this i love you. then i helped her re-download aim, yay! and yeah we just kinda hung around and stuff, i made her eat onion w/ oreo haaha funny stuff. she turned on some of her screaming banchee music with the slashing guitars, ...
ME: this sounds like a joke..a really bad joke.
Heather: HAHA dude i made a bet with myself it would take you a min and 30 secs to say something but it only took you 40!!!
haaha i got no love for the growling. but yes anyway we had a grand time, we went to kristins for like 5 min..she told a big ole lie on the phone it was so funny..and so yeah!
now im home, my moms real dad came over, hes spending the night. i haven't really talked to him much..ever so its a little bit awkward with him in the house. but anyways, i hope everything works out with everything..i have the highest hopes, really.
xox
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