also written in Bisexual_World

[goodgirl2u]

I am so upset and depressed it's not even funny. My mother has been gone for a week and she hasn't been around for anything. Like this last weekend I had gradnight and she wasn't there. Then when she does come home from her trip(to california) she completely ignored me. Atleast that is how I feel, Anyways in less then 5 weeks I will be graduating and my family wants to move (to arizona) at that same time,and they decided that almost a month ago so I have had some time to process this. Yesterday my father asked me if I wanted to go out with them this summer and fly back to start college. I was so excited I said yea but now I am not so sure. I mean I want to spend as much time with them as possible but I don't think that going with them to arizona is good for me emotionally. I am so angry and sad I don't know what to do with myself. I have a whole part of me that they don't even know about, and I want them to know that side of me but I don't know how to express/explain to them how I feel*. Apart of me say's the hell with them and another part of me is afraid to lose them. whatever!!!
Well that is all for now :(
* for those of you who have been commenting on post know what I am talking about.

-later-