Stay With Me
When I saw you, I was Afraid to meet you,
“This will be the Maknae of the group, Lee Taemin. Take good care of him, he's rather young to be doing this...” Our manager said, but I couldn't hear the rest as I stared at the beauty in front of me. I had asked myself over and over if he was some kind of angel or saint. I couldn't take my eyes off of him, even when he shyly glanced at me I couldn't. I was scared, I didn't want to be near such beauty. What if I tainted it? What if I hurt you? The innocent smile that you showed us as you were introduced to us solidified my decision, I wouldn't be anywhere near you in fear of hurting you.
When I met you, I was afraid to kiss you,
“Minho Hyung! Let's go get ice-cream!” You shouted excitedly at me when you came into the room.
“Taemin-ah, no. I want to sleep, not run around with you everywhere.” I stated coldly. I hate being this way towards you, but I refuse to ruin the innocent light that surrounds you.
“Minho Hyung....please? You're the only one here today so let's please go out and play.” You had pouted at me as you pleaded with me. I couldn't say no to you when you ask me like that, and you know it.
“Fine. Get ready.” I stated reluctantly. As I spent the day with you, I realized that you give your all in everything you do. I can't even come to understand how you stay so positive and giving to those around you. As the day went on, we became closer and better friends, but the desire to kiss you became an issue. You see me as your Hyung, not as anything else. I can't take your innocence away from you.
When I kissed you, I was afraid to love you,
“Minho Hyung, can you help me with this problem?” You asked me innocently. I couldn't stand being away from you anymore, even if my desire to kiss you increased more than I'd like to admit.
“Sure thing Minnie, be right there.” I said as I followed you into your room. As I helped you do your homework, I couldn't help but stare at your lips in wonder of how they felt. Suddenly you turned to me. I was surprised by your action but even more so when you slowly began to lean into me. You kissed me gently and I replied with slow movements of my lips against yours. As we gently kissed I began to wonder if I could truly love you or just be entranced by your unique beauty. When we pulled away you smiled slightly at me and turned back to your work. I stared in a daze at you thinking over the fact that I was scared to love you. Would I be able to care for you properly? Would I be able to make you happy? Do I love you?
Now that I love you, I'm scared to lose you,
“Hyung, I love you...” Taemin said to me gently as he hugged me tight. I hesitated while hugging you back and stayed silent as I held you. My heart beat was irregular and I was loving the closeness, and yet I still couldn't say those three words to you. A week after that, I came home looking for you. I had thought about the way you've always stood by me as we've grown together and how I never truly showed my appreciation. I had planned to take you out after giving you your Banana Milk. I looked all around the house for you, but couldn't find you anywhere. When I asked Jonghyun Hyung, he said you went out with one if the TRAX Hyungs. When I heard that, my heart began to hurt beyond anything I had felt before. Is this what it feels like to love and be let down? I do love you...Why didn't I realize it sooner. You'd have been here with me instead of them tonight. I sat in the living room for 5 hours waiting for you. It was 2 in the morning when you finally got back home that night. When I saw you, I didn't what I was doing until I was right in front of you. I grabbed you tightly and kissed you hard. You were mine to love, and I had finally realized that when I thought I had lost you to someone else. You kissed me back just as hard as we made our way to a room. In that room I claimed and marked you as mine and mine alone. I told you over and over how much you meant to me and how much I truly loved you as we spent the night in each others arms. The only thing on my mind over than how much I loved you was that I never want to lose you in my life.
Stay with me until I grow old or until you no longer love me.
Stay with me in my mind, my heart, my soul.
I love you like I have never loved any other.
You hold my heart in your hands, and all I ask in return is that you
Stay With Me
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