NOTHING
I hate just about everything in sight.
School
Life
People
There are some that I like and you guys know who are you are.
I'm just so unhappy with everything in my life right now. I'm doing bad in school, with girls, and after school activities. I hate being depressed all the time and not happy with anything that I do. Whenever I see two people show affection toward eachother in front of me, I can do nothing but be jealous. I think I have mental problems...Neurosis being one of them because half the time I have to find reasons to back up my depressed states. Totally random mood swings are becoming too common and I fear there is nothing that can make me feel different. In the past few weeks I have NOT been happy with any thing I've done or said to anyone or thing. Sitting at home writing journal entries like this isnt exactly my idea of a great fucking time. I could also care less about what anyone thinks of my problems, not that your comments would be appriciated or anything I'm just that certain that nothing can change me. When I wake up in the morning I don't do it for myself just my parents because I don't want them to think I'm a failure. My vanity is also another thing that wakes me up because I'm constantly concered about what I look like for ME. As long as I think that I look good I'm set. It feels better knowing that I know that I look good other than someone else saying it unless they REALLY meant it.
You
Have
It
Or
You
Dont
School
Life
People
There are some that I like and you guys know who are you are.
I'm just so unhappy with everything in my life right now. I'm doing bad in school, with girls, and after school activities. I hate being depressed all the time and not happy with anything that I do. Whenever I see two people show affection toward eachother in front of me, I can do nothing but be jealous. I think I have mental problems...Neurosis being one of them because half the time I have to find reasons to back up my depressed states. Totally random mood swings are becoming too common and I fear there is nothing that can make me feel different. In the past few weeks I have NOT been happy with any thing I've done or said to anyone or thing. Sitting at home writing journal entries like this isnt exactly my idea of a great fucking time. I could also care less about what anyone thinks of my problems, not that your comments would be appriciated or anything I'm just that certain that nothing can change me. When I wake up in the morning I don't do it for myself just my parents because I don't want them to think I'm a failure. My vanity is also another thing that wakes me up because I'm constantly concered about what I look like for ME. As long as I think that I look good I'm set. It feels better knowing that I know that I look good other than someone else saying it unless they REALLY meant it.
You
Have
It
Or
You
Dont