{ open up } my eager eyes..
i went shopping with sydni today. i had a pretty good time, syd and i haven't hung outside of school for a while, so it was nice. i bought some silver moccasin-looking sandals and a pretty beated peasant-ish top at styles4less, then some jewelry for mona (her birthday is next week) at rue21. i also bought some underwear there too. i got a windchime at the paper factory for my mom for mother's day & i got danny a little ribbon that says "kiss me, it's my birthday" for him. his birthday is tomorrow.
last night was mediocore. diana, nilsen, ryan & taylor and i went to the movies. we saw "crash", but wanted to go and see "house of wax". i thought crash was going to be some action/thriller movie, but actually turned out to be a drama focused on racism and assumptions. it was intense and really deep, but i liked it a lot. it was the type of movie that causes you to ponder for a while after you see it. i was looking forward to hanging out with danny too, but he didn't come because he was tired & sore from his track meet earlier. it kind of bummed me out, and i was a little upset because we had been talking about it all week. but oh well, life goes on. i just hope i can see him tomorrow for his birthday.
that's just about it.. i can't wait until summer. only 5 more weeks until school ends. i'm really excited. this summer's going to be great, i can tell already. i'm really looking forward to going to the beach all day, sleeping in, not having to worry about things & see certain people every day. until then, we can just pretend.
UGH. i'm being so ridiculous. i don't even know why i'm falling so hard for him, but i am. i love it & hate it at the same time. i really don't think i'm going to get hurt by him, he's most definitely not that type. i'm tired of things turning into chaos, and i can't afford to be let down again. it's happend too much, and partially because i've allowed myself to become so vulnerable and get hurt. but with him.. somehow i just KNOW it's going to be different. i have this almost magnetic, anxious feeling inside of me. i'd really like this feeling to stay for a while too. i'm praying that it does, because i need this. i truly do. i want him to be my special someone. i want to fall in love. granted, nothing can be forced, everything comes in it's own good time and i'm in no rush for anything. i can sense, somehow, that whatever this is, it's going to be spectacular and real. i'd really things to work out for the better, for once. hopefully this will be that one time.
♥
"i fall, with you i fall so fast
i can hardly catch my breath,
i hope it lasts.
oh, seems like i can finally rest
my head on something real.
i like the way that feels."
last night was mediocore. diana, nilsen, ryan & taylor and i went to the movies. we saw "crash", but wanted to go and see "house of wax". i thought crash was going to be some action/thriller movie, but actually turned out to be a drama focused on racism and assumptions. it was intense and really deep, but i liked it a lot. it was the type of movie that causes you to ponder for a while after you see it. i was looking forward to hanging out with danny too, but he didn't come because he was tired & sore from his track meet earlier. it kind of bummed me out, and i was a little upset because we had been talking about it all week. but oh well, life goes on. i just hope i can see him tomorrow for his birthday.
that's just about it.. i can't wait until summer. only 5 more weeks until school ends. i'm really excited. this summer's going to be great, i can tell already. i'm really looking forward to going to the beach all day, sleeping in, not having to worry about things & see certain people every day. until then, we can just pretend.
UGH. i'm being so ridiculous. i don't even know why i'm falling so hard for him, but i am. i love it & hate it at the same time. i really don't think i'm going to get hurt by him, he's most definitely not that type. i'm tired of things turning into chaos, and i can't afford to be let down again. it's happend too much, and partially because i've allowed myself to become so vulnerable and get hurt. but with him.. somehow i just KNOW it's going to be different. i have this almost magnetic, anxious feeling inside of me. i'd really like this feeling to stay for a while too. i'm praying that it does, because i need this. i truly do. i want him to be my special someone. i want to fall in love. granted, nothing can be forced, everything comes in it's own good time and i'm in no rush for anything. i can sense, somehow, that whatever this is, it's going to be spectacular and real. i'd really things to work out for the better, for once. hopefully this will be that one time.
♥
"i fall, with you i fall so fast
i can hardly catch my breath,
i hope it lasts.
oh, seems like i can finally rest
my head on something real.
i like the way that feels."