let your waves crash down..
i spent the night at madison's last night with jackie. it was pretty fun, we watched "how to lose a guy in 10 days" and "thirteen" and parts of "american wedding" and some random porn movies, haha. i don't see how people find too much pleasure out of them, they're just kinda interesting to watch. i think boobs are really ugly looking, does anyone agree with me?
then later on, seth invited me to go to pismo with him, nick, madison, jackie and mike. i had a blast! it was the first time i'd hung out with the guys outside of school. we played pool at hot shots, walked on the pier, etc. it was pretty cool, i can't wait until we all do it again. it really took my mind off of a lot of things too.
i read "his" away message & profile today, it sounded like he's moving on pretty quickly, although when we ended things it seemed as though i still meant something to him. i haven't talked to him over the phone since wednesday, and our online conversations have been short. i don't think he really cares much, or values me in any way. it's confusing for me, i don't know what his deal is, but i'm over it. whatever it is. i'm so done with guys right now for a while.
the funny thing is, when i MET "him", i was just starting to get used to being single, i didn't want a guy in my life at all, and i thought maybe he would be different, as with all the rest of the guys i've unsuccessfully dated. as it turns out, i was wrong again. as usual. so this really did it for me, i don't need or want a boyfriend right now. i think i kind of knew deep inside of me all along that i really shouldn't start something i couldnt fully put my heart into, i wasn't ready.
now, it's not even 9 yet and i'm already getting tired.
i think i'm too complicated.
then later on, seth invited me to go to pismo with him, nick, madison, jackie and mike. i had a blast! it was the first time i'd hung out with the guys outside of school. we played pool at hot shots, walked on the pier, etc. it was pretty cool, i can't wait until we all do it again. it really took my mind off of a lot of things too.
i read "his" away message & profile today, it sounded like he's moving on pretty quickly, although when we ended things it seemed as though i still meant something to him. i haven't talked to him over the phone since wednesday, and our online conversations have been short. i don't think he really cares much, or values me in any way. it's confusing for me, i don't know what his deal is, but i'm over it. whatever it is. i'm so done with guys right now for a while.
the funny thing is, when i MET "him", i was just starting to get used to being single, i didn't want a guy in my life at all, and i thought maybe he would be different, as with all the rest of the guys i've unsuccessfully dated. as it turns out, i was wrong again. as usual. so this really did it for me, i don't need or want a boyfriend right now. i think i kind of knew deep inside of me all along that i really shouldn't start something i couldnt fully put my heart into, i wasn't ready.
now, it's not even 9 yet and i'm already getting tired.
i think i'm too complicated.