gone.
life is so shitty its almost unbelievable. all my parents ever do is yell at me and freak out on me for every little thang that i do. im so sick and tired of everyhting. i cant take this much longer.i guess the only reason why i continue living is because of nick...but even that is starting to fade away.my mom is downstairs crying...and telling bob that i told her how crabby she always is when i never even ssaid that. she told me that she thinks theres something obviously going on at erikas is me and courtney always wanna be over there. and all i said was "yeah thats because her mom doesnt freak out on us all the time and shes always nice to us!"...and the reason why i said that is because its true. erikas mom is always in a good mood. shes never pissed off or yelling. i never said that my mom was a total bitch or anything. im just sick of her and bob not letting me do anything.they called erikas last friday and no one answered so now theyre like "your not going ovr there anymore because we cant get ahold of you so there probably isnt and parents there"...wtf? how would they know!? and her mom really WAS home!!! idk why we didnt hear the phone...but oh well...they already dont believe me so whatever. they dont believe anything anymore. and the funny thing is...i actually havent lied to either of them in a really long time! so i guess i'll probably just end up staying the night at courtney's tomorrow because i really dont want to come home.home sucks. veryone is always mad at me...no matter where i am...at school or at home. someone is ALWAYS pissed off at me. i can never do anything right. i always fuck things up and im never gonna be good enough for ANYBODY. i should just go back to harbor oaks where i belong...