where I make trouble by trying to avoid it

Feb 02, 2009 20:26

So, Advisor and I are supposed to meet to deal with this stupid assinine IACUC thing. He tells me last week that he may not be able to meet Monday if Nancy doesn't get him her NSF resubmission over the weekend (it's due really soon and she's doing this from Kenya). In which case, we'd meet Wednesday. I tell him, fine, I'm available anytime either day for this, just TELL ME. I hear nothing from him. I try calling his office around noon, leave a message. Still nadda. Try again right after his office hours, no answer. one of my friends was meeting with him at the time (I find out when he comes back up to our office area). I'm feeling like I've done enough and obviously, he's busy as he said he might be. So, like a moron, I don't try to call him again. I get an email from him tonight saying that he realizes he was probably supposed to confirm with me, as I never came by and he was expecting me! Of course by this point he has to leave anyhow...so we have to meet Wednesday. but wait! We're both going to that talk in Princeton (I'm actually probably riding with him, but we need a computer and internet for this), so that means we have to do this before 2. And he has a faculty meeting and some other meeting. Oh, and family emergency may involve hi leaving the state! Argh! I told him fine to play it by ear and call me anytime he can meet Wednesday cause this needs to get done!

I'm mad at myself; in my gut I knew I should try calling him again...he's terrible at checking his voicemail, apparently in his office as well as his cell. I think I am too sensitive to being a pest to people, espeially when I know they're super busy. I need to get over that. And remember Advisor apparently doesn't check voicemail period (and therefore, my calling a bunch is not a hassle as he never got the damn message to begin with). of course, why the heck didn't he call me if he was expecting me to come by and it was getting towards time for him to leave?? that's what I do...is this a man thing?

edited to add: and it is that time of the month and my damn hormones are reminding me that big brain aside, yes, biology affects our behavior (there are those who think understanding evolution and the type of things I study are irrelevant for humans since we have wonder cognitive abilities that override these baser thing. What a load of shit.). I am so emotional right now, it is absurd...I get upset and cry easily at times like these and my response to these kind of situations is not normal.
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