Exhausted
Moods go up and down, energy levels go up and down, depression has been constant for some time now. I can only do so much, and I am enjoying fewer and fewer things because of my reduced energy levels.
I should be happy. I actually received my first royalty check ever for a publication. While it is not much money, it is motivation enough to put another book out there some day.
I should be happy. My Intro to LGBTIQ Studies class is going well and the students are bringing as well as they are receiving. Often it is the high point of my day.
I should be happy. I have so much more than many people.
But I am not happy. And this depression has settled in my arms, making it incredibly difficult for me to draw, or want to do much of anything for that matter. I really, really need help, and I am not sure that anyone can anymore.
I should be happy. I actually received my first royalty check ever for a publication. While it is not much money, it is motivation enough to put another book out there some day.
I should be happy. My Intro to LGBTIQ Studies class is going well and the students are bringing as well as they are receiving. Often it is the high point of my day.
I should be happy. I have so much more than many people.
But I am not happy. And this depression has settled in my arms, making it incredibly difficult for me to draw, or want to do much of anything for that matter. I really, really need help, and I am not sure that anyone can anymore.