trying to fill the whole within
Ummm i dont really feel like updating that much but some people like to bitch about it.. coughcoughmicahelcoughcough. Im kiddin bubba. i love you.
things are ok, i had a HUGE blow out with my mom a few days ago. same old bullshit. fuckin tried to kcik me out again, said shit like im not part of the family and all this shit. But whatever. Its the same routine. Ever few months she kicks me out, then calls me a few days later and says "you have chores to do get your ass home" its crap and its getting real old. I wish i had some way to escape. tomorrow is picture day. TOooooo bad i dont give a fuck. Had a job interview today and i REALLY hope imma get it. I want this job SO BAD. you have no clue. but i hav ea goood feeling... and ill know tomorrow. so yea. I miss my boyfriend. Life sucks with out him. And he seems to be having a hard time lately and i hate that i cant do anything for him. I wish so badly that i could help make him feel better, but nothing i do seem to help. I feel like im faling him, like im being a bad girlfirend. I just wanna see him happy. Id nearly die just to see him smile.
Schools ok, my teachers love me. I hate most of my classes. ugh. but yea. james bought me the hawthorne heights CD so here are some of the songs i like. Take care. love and miss ya'll. ciao
Sandpaper And Silk- Hawthorne Heights
Wait 'til after dark
We'll try to make a mark
One that stays until we're done
And we'll pretend again
Lets try not to forget where we are
And who we're with
Who we will find.
Miles can cut this tie we've made
The sharp side of the blade
As these words play out
They'll try and drag you down
You feel like one of them
Who we will find
Miles can cut this tie we've made
The sharp side of the blade
Make sure that you can keep it
Make sure you keep it in your heart [2x]
Miles can cut this tie we've made
The sharp side of the blade
Miles can cut this tie we've made
The sharp side of the blade
Make sure that you can keep it
Make sure you keep it in your heart
Miles can cut this tie we've made
The sharp side of the blade (in your heart)
The Transition- Hawthorne Heights
So here we are
Back to the start again
Trying hard to wait 'til morning
Hey, Rise and shine
And open up your eyes
To give this world some color
Shine on diamond eyes
Seperate the space between love and lies
And as days go by, the memories remain
I'll wait for you.
And as days go by the memories remain
I won't let go.
These days remain the same.
Pictures fade away
Please don't ever, change.
Please don't change your mind
No matter what they say
I'll always wait.
And as days go by, the memories remain
I'll wait for you.
And as days go by, the memories remain
I won't let go.
These days remain the same.
Pictures fade away...
I hope you never...fade.
As you drip through my...veins.
Shine on (Shine on) Shine on
Diamond eyes.
Shine on (Shine on) Shine on
Diamond eyes.
Shine on (Shine on) Shine on
Diamond eyes.
As days go by the memories remain
I'll wait for you.
As days go by
I swear I'll try until I die
Anything for you.